Random thought thread

I've been pondering how my memory works.

For some things like basic educational learning and skills, it's like my mind records it in step by step instruction. In algebra I use to get in trouble for not being able to prove my work. I just knew the answer but didn't know how I knew. My teacher would give me "extra tests" to prove I wasn't cheating. I would have to stay after class for a few minutes and answer 2-4 algebra equations he wrote up just for me. I couldn't possibly cheat on it. And they would be long and complicated. I would just write x=52 within seconds. I couldn't tell you how or why though.

With memories of events, they are all encoded in a metaphor. I have to solve the metaphors.

If I ask in my head about where I got my dog for example, I get images of long rooms with portals openning. A dark figure comes in and places a box on the floor and vanishes. I have to figure out that my father brought the dog home. Then I get the real memory back. That I was sitting on the living room floor, watching tv, and he came in the front door with a dog under his arms and set it on the floor.

My brain doesn't hold memories like other people.

That really sucks.

so as some of you know i have 2 alters who have come forward Paige and one i dont know yet i have just had another switch just before i started this post from Paige and i dont know whats really hapening i mean i've switched before and i know it happens but this time its different normally i feel fine after almost like it never happened but this time i feel really tired and down to the point of wanting to cry and Paige wont talk to me.
its probably compleatly normal but its just never happened before i have a head ache and i feel dizzy at first i thought it was the fact i have ME/CFS aswell but its worse than that has ever hit me.

i guess i'm just being over sensertive.

anyway thanks fot the thed its a good 1