Do I have it?

I'm not going to go into a full life-story scenario here, but I will give the basics.

My mother is/was an alcohaulic, because of this I frequently suffered emotional abuse as a young child, and am still going through this today.

A few years ago I began to feel 'low', 'down', and just generally horrible. This feeling has persisted with me almost constantly since that time. About a year or so ago I began to hear 'voices'...but these voices felt like 'myself'. I'm sure those of you here know what I mean by that. They were different from me, but at the same time they were contained with in my self.

Within the last few months I heard about DID. I've since done quite a bit of reading on the subject, and taken the 'official' evaluation (I scored a 42), and I've sort of saturated myself in knowledge, and it all seems to click. Things I can remember from being a young child, new things...everything works out. But I still can't help wondering whether or not it's just me fooling myself into thinking that I have this disorder.

I've done this sort of thing before. I 'gave myself asthma' for several years when I was young, as well as a few other similar things.

I have not saught help from any sources in my family, or any professionals. The circumstances I am living in are too difficult for me to do that at the moment. I'm just wondering if anyone has any thoughts on this.

=Emma, and the rest=

go into therapy or counselling and talk about what you feel like is going on. Yes, I kind of understand the voice not of our own occasional inner diaglouge.. the accents, I just thought i was talking now in 2014 I've come to learn there are reasons for that. From the my experience I kind of got lucky and was led to an organization that reallly help me..Long story, but as yyou enter counseling and speak you gain a better understanding of your self internally and your parts will speak outwardly then you begin to know which part is speaking in therapy...Its a really long journey and process to understand.

No one here can give you a diagnosis only a certified and trained professional can do that for you.

Like the previous post said you need to get into therapy so you can get officially diagnosed. If you do have DID the earlier you get treatment, the sooner you can gain control or learn how to work with your system.

I can identify with hearing the voices. I always thought I was constantly talking to myself. I'd assign faces to the different voices, which all sounded like me, so I could make sense of what was going on. I am new to the process and am learning how to try and communicate with my other alters. I only have 3 that will talk to me and come out.

It may be hard but deffinitely seek therapy so you'll know for sure. I'm not sure how valid the online tests are. Therapists have valid tests and questions they can give you to diagnose it.

Good luck!