Talking to internal voices at 13/Recovering alters memory?

Geez I feel like I post too much here so I hope I'm not annoying anyone (I'm going to be away from the internet until about Wednesday anyway so hopefully no more threads )

Okay, this is weird. I remembered that when I was 13ish, I was part of some spiritualist forum where they all believed in spirit guides etc etc. I joined in, I followed all their guidelines in order to try to 'talk to' my guide. Now, I remembered actaully talking to this guide in my head. I couldn't remember what he was called though so I hunted dwon the website, here is my post:

"I just tried to meet my guide by clearing my mind and visualising myself of the beach. I imagined an energy force and I kept asking it questions like I had read on a few websites. I said 'What is your name?' and the name Peter instantly came into my head. When I had been there for a few minutes my hands started to tingle and I felt as if they were numb, but when I opened my eyes they were normal'.

It's weird because, before I revisited the forum, I couldn't remember this, but now I can. I used to talk to him in my head at school etc. Also, the "tingly, numb hands" is something I get when someone's switching or trying to switch now.

Also another weird thing is that, around this time, I started having memories that weren't mine. Memories of combat, fighting in British DPMs, guns. But the memories seem to come like I was suffering some type of PTSD. at the time I was really interested in teh military, in the air cadets, wanted to join the army etc. First time I ever shot a rifle the officer was extremely impressed. I also hated Germans at that time too. I used to rant about them and WW2. It seemed unreasonable. At 13 I was strongly conviced that I was a WW2 soldier in a past life!

Any opinions on this? Think it's an alter or two that haven't shown themselves yet? Anyone else get memories that weren't theirs before realising they had alters?

Another thing I remember is that when I was young I was staying at my nanna's house and I think, think I lost time. I was lying in bed at night, blinked and it was morning. (I'm not sure if I've posted about this before, might have...) Is this concurrent with what it's like to lose time? My nanna said I probably just fell asleep... But my experience two months ago where I blinked and suddenly it was an hour later matches up pretty well to it.

Again, sorry if we're posting too much!
Kaz x

I think your guide Peter seems like an alter. I mean.. what else could he have been? I also called R my guide in lack of a better term, as I have told in a blog entry titled 'About R'. It's funny that I briefly considered the possibility of him being an alter after he had been around so many times that I was convinced it wasn't just my imagination anymore. I must have looked up some information of DID, since I rejected the possibility of an alter for I had no amnesia.
I actually joined a spiritual forum in hope to find an explanation for R, but nobody there could say that they had had a similar experience, so I was left in uncertainty of his role for a long time, until this year I found my way to this forum.

The war and soldier theme reminded me of a role play that was very important to me when I was five years old, I remember playing it with a girl I knew then. Basically it was just a narrative about two young soldiers who got into dangerous situations in war, and when it happened they passed out. I think I always needed someone else to play it with me, maybe I was trying to communicate what was going on in my head. As I was telling the story I saw the two soldiers who were lost and afraid, and the only thing we did in that play was to pretend how they passed out. For some reason it was very important to me that they passed out numerous times. Now that I've met R and P who come and go and who have been created in my early childhood I can't help drawing a connection between them and this soldier roleplay, which my family considered funny.

I gotta add that there probably are many DIDians among the people who are actively involved in spirituality and things like that, and who explain their others as guides, angels and so on.

No idea on this, but I just wanted to say that I love your posts and that no one should feel they post too much....

Okay, maybe if no one ever answers and you are just posting to yourself.
This part is a joke! No one take this personal!