Had a weird moment?

Una+ wrote:That's okay. I saw the warning and looked anyway. Part of the healing process is to locate the wounds that need healing. Now I have angry buzzing in my head. And a new thought that is sick-making.

I really hope you feel better soon. -hug-

I don't know how I'm going to do this now... I thought I was so ready to confront things and continue to be optimistic. Now, I'm really not sure if I even want to go to therapy or anything. Maybe it would be better to remain ignorant... they say ignorance is bliss, right?

The comfort food is going sour in my stomach. I'm so so sorry I made you sick too. I think I'll go back and delete that section, so it doesn't trigger anyone else.

GRRRR!!!

I'm sorry, lovely. That sounds awful to have to realize and deal with.

Sarah has experienced that before. We are co-conscious most of the time, and feel particularly squished now as we are not allowed out around her aunt, really. And that is who she is living with.

I like being co-conscious with her, really--it saves having to figure a few things out on my own!

~Little Miss Margaret~

Please don't delete that paragraph. I'm pretty sure I'm right when I say that Una (and most others) wouldn't want that. This is your thread, and it's your sharing. And it's valuable - even if it is triggering for others. You don't want to try to take on the caretaker role on here... you'd be altering and deleting posts left and right and constantly worrying about how the content of what you say is going to effect someone else. You never know how it's going to affect someone else. And like Una said, it's part of the healing process. The best thing you can do is give ample warning (like you did) and then let people react how they will. I apologize for sounding cold or insensitive, but I've spent way too much of my life caretaking other peoples' feelings and I know it's a never-ending cycle of worry.

brandic wrote:Please don't delete that paragraph. I'm pretty sure I'm right when I say that Una (and most others) wouldn't want that. This is your thread, and it's your sharing. And it's valuable - even if it is triggering for others. You don't want to try to take on the caretaker role on here... you'd be altering and deleting posts left and right and constantly worrying about how the content of what you say is going to effect someone else. You never know how it's going to affect someone else. And like Una said, it's part of the healing process. The best thing you can do is give ample warning (like you did) and then let people react how they will. I apologize for sounding cold or insensitive, but I've spent way too much of my life caretaking other peoples' feelings and I know it's a never-ending cycle of worry.

You didn't sound cold or insensitive. I understand. I've taken the caretaker roll all my life; I guess it's time to let that go a little.

I just felt terrible knowing that, as helpful and awesome Una has been in helping me, I repayed it by triggering her. That was the thought going through my head. I didn't mean to overreact; sorry I ruined the thread. It had been going well..lol.

I'll write more about my weird moment once I get some food in me. I just woke up from a rejuvenating nap that helped the angry buzzing. Apparently, even though I've been eating comfort food like crazy, I'm starting to lose weight...three pounds this week. I wonder if this is stress related or my metabolism decided to hit kid mode again.

LinaeveWorkman wrote:I just felt terrible knowing that, as helpful and awesome Una has been in helping me, I repayed it by triggering her.

Don't feel terrible. Triggering events are crumbs, showing me the trail forward.

LinaeveWorkman wrote:even though I've been eating comfort food like crazy, I'm starting to lose weight...three pounds this week. I wonder if this is stress related or my metabolism decided to hit kid mode again.

Switching is mental hard work. Headaches, naps, and metabolic demand for extra calories all follow from that.

Una+ wrote:Triggering events are crumbs, showing me the trail forward.

Wow Una, I really love that.

Una+ wrote:Don't feel terrible. Triggering events are crumbs, showing me the trail forward.

Okay. I really like how you put that. I think I'm going to write that in my journal, if you don't mind, to keep me focused throughout this ordeal.

When I first read it, someone said 'Hanzel and Gretal?! I hate the witch!'. Lol!

Switching is mental hard work. Headaches, naps, and metabolic demand for extra calories all follow from that.

Wow, I didn't know that! I knew the headaches were a common symptom, and I've been diagnosed with migraines and 'rebound' headaches (aka they thought I was taking too much medicine...but I repeatedly told them I barely took anything at all). I didn't know naps were a part of it (thought it was depression honestly, but I haven't had all the feelings associated with it) and I honestly didn't think metabolism would be a part at all.