Check in: Hypersexuality

tylas wrote:Una...

Do you ever go so far as BDSM, slave/master, bondage, groups etc.. in your desires. I just always thought I was a freak! It's good to know i have a reason to be.

You're not alone! When I was hypersexual, to get my husband into the bedroom as much as possible, I suggested ANYTHING. I even suggested we get a girlfriend for me to play with... Thinking back to those episodes (haven't had one in a while -fingers crossed for no more-), I get very ashamed at the things I've asked for..

Gah me and Vicky are the exact same way everyone has described their episodes. The things we've done, heh.. I never noticed that being a common thing people experience.

LinaeveWorkman I know exactly how you feel. I've had other partners with my boyfriend to fill some need Vicky/I have for "exploration". Her more so than me. But still thinking back I feel shame as well because in the right state of mind I never really care about those things unless I desperately need to be engaged in that behavior.

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Do any of you feel like this? Like you have 2 'hosts" , but you are NOT co-conscious between them?
I am trying to figure out the ANP still. One is very sexual and one is not?

Tylas I feel like that sometimes. My communication with everyone seems to have diminished after the memories that came to me so I don't have the ability to talk with everyone like I used to. Victoria was the host for I'd say... 2-3 years? Then last year I started coming back to host, but she is still very much in control and when I'm not around (or there but not as aware) she is usually the one present. She is VERY sexual, and I am less sexual, almost disinterested in it sometimes.

tylas wrote:I am trying to figure out the ANP still. One is very sexual and one is not?

I see you started another thread about this, so I'll just say here that from what you describe I think you have two (or more?) powerful alters with an amnesiac barrier between them; one is an ANP, and the other is an EP.

Una+ wrote:

tylas wrote:I am trying to figure out the ANP still. One is very sexual and one is not?

I see you started another thread about this, so I'll just say here that from what you describe I think you have two (or more?) powerful alters with an amnesiac barrier between them; one is an ANP, and the other is an EP.

So how do you define the EP from the ANP and which is which?

tylas wrote:

Una+ wrote:

tylas wrote:I am trying to figure out the ANP still. One is very sexual and one is not?

I see you started another thread about this, so I'll just say here that from what you describe I think you have two (or more?) powerful alters with an amnesiac barrier between them; one is an ANP, and the other is an EP.

So how do you define the EP from the ANP and which is which?

I would say... that the ANP is the part that holds memories that need to be kept from others and the EP is the part that contains stuff that could/would cause triggering.

I'd say it's not a steadfast definition. The reason for the timeloss, to me, is that there needs to be a part that controls memories and such that could be triggering and keeps them from everyone else or controls the emotions and memories so that the rest are "free" of them and more able to function properly. So there are two wills that are created, along with barriers. The barriers/separate wills/partitioning giving only one part control of certain "stuff" is the cause of the time loss.

EPs can become ANPs if they learn how to deal with their trauma and diffuse memories/remove or reduce the barriers, and ANPs can become EPS if they end up taking on stuff that they need to "withhold" or have blocked off from the rest.

Though I couldn't read the entire thing. my system was all like "NO WE DO NOT AGREE WITH THAT. ~Cue discord~" So yeah. ._.; Plus, Wraith isn't out as much lately and she's the technical one. The kids want to override her and don't have the patience to let her wade through it AND deal with reading something some of us were/are kinda dead-set against believing because to us it seems thoroughly "not true" and "doesn't fit" [Edit: For us. We're more boarderline than many here anyhow, so we acknowledge that we may be wrong but were unable to read through and confirm or deny our theories and beliefs on the subject. We apologize if we are ignorant/incorrect regarding it.
^_^;

Aecy - I would say... that the ANP is the part that holds memories that need to be kept from others and the EP is the part that contains stuff that could/would cause triggering.

Yes, but other way around. The ANP appears normal and does NOT have the traumatic memories. The EP's hold those memories.

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Also. back on topic. xD We have dealt with that before.

It was in some ways a desire for affection/touch without the emotional side of the interaction [because it was too painful to imagine being loved when we weren't, for instance,] and in some ways it was a self-injuring, emotional thing, some ways masturbation was a way to release pain, sometimes it was malice using it to hurt aecy, sometimes it was a way to let ourselves feel like the victim when we were always told we were the antagonist. In our fantasies, we were allowed to be the victim, and it caused positive physical sensations and such, even if it hurt in other ways and caused discord.

We just haven't felt that need for it anymore since vie dealt with some of her affection issues and started working on some of her attachment issues, too. We still do BDSM, but... well, the fantasies have become consensual.

There is no evidence of sexual trauma, and we still had a hymen as of our first period. Though there were some other sexuality related issues, but nothing that seemed to involve us enduring abuse at the hands of another as far as we can recall.

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tylas wrote:Aecy - I would say... that the ANP is the part that holds memories that need to be kept from others and the EP is the part that contains stuff that could/would cause triggering.

Yes, but other way around. The ANP appears normal and does NOT have the traumatic memories. The EP's hold those memories.

^_^;

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Sorry, got it mixed up. I knew what I meant, you knew what I meant, but the words came out wrong. I do that a lot; we switch mid-sentence or someone talks while someone else pulls the info, possibly from someone else, but it gets all garbled in translation. >.>;

That's what we meant. Actually, an ANP is a part from which things NEED to be hidden. The ANP is the one that is cut off, the EP is the one who usually controls their own portion of the self and the flow of information relating to it and such I suppose?

I figured you did.

http://www.empty-memories.nl/didmpd.html
Check this out. I am not sure if he agrees with me, but I concede to him either way. He seems to really understand the ANP/EP stuff.