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Emergency! a little help here?

Postby chibixal » Thu Jul 07, 2011 7:27 am

So like there crap goin down right, this is Lyle. This is what I know...

Aneisha "ran away" when she was 11 because josh convinced her not to tell anyone what happen to her. So he told her to change her name to Lillyane. Then she ran. Aneisha, our host as of now, took over when she ran away. Aneisha and josh co existed unaware of each other and then jay and I came along. Aneisha was unaware of any of us. Aneisha grew up and is now married. So yeah Lillyane got tired of running away and came back.....her and aneisha were well on their way to getting Lillyane to tell aneishas therapist about the trama Lillyane suffered. But then this josh guy came back (he was locked away by gray when aneisha was about 14 ) so josh found that Lillyane was going to tell her secret (and since josh is the only person Lillyane trusted because he helped her escape and run away) he was able to convince Lillyane stole her life and is a bad guy. Josh took over while lillyane's crying distracted everyone and josh told aneishas husband aneisha was fake! Now he is all freaked out and thinks we have been lying to him all this time and he wanted to leave! He's calmer now and isn't leaving but things a very shaky. I found my self out after all the craziness happened. Gray saw it was getting out of control and started putting everyone on lock down in their rooms. He wanted me to go to lock up but I am refusing not to go. If I'm not out and everyone else is locked up and gray doesn't leave his position as gatekeeper to control the body then who is going to be here! This couldn't possibly be that bad we need to create a new alter would it??
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My dx: AD, PTSD, DID, italics non active posters
(current host) Ane 22
(protecters) Jay 24M Josh 15M
Lyle ?/?
Sabastien 26M
Kami 21F
Rori/Roxley 16 F/M
(former hosts) Lillyane 10F Marie 5F Lil'Rose 4F
(gatekeeper)Gray ??
My husbands dx: OCD, Bipolar Disorder, and signs of Dissociation.
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Re: Emergency! a little help here?

Postby pheonixrise » Thu Jul 07, 2011 7:41 am

It sounds like a full-on situation, but you guys don't need to make a new alter if you don't want to. I'd suggest you try dealing with one problem at a time. I think the first thing would be to make sure Aneisha is okay, and is able to explain to her husband what is going on. Does he know she has DID? If not, that's an important starting point.

With Lillyane, maybe see if she'll write down what happened (at a later time, when things have settled down a bit). Then the story will be there, regardless of what happens. Might just have to make a deal with any alters who aren't allowed to know the story so they don't go peeking at it.

Does Gray have any ideas on what to do with Josh yet?
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Re: Emergency! a little help here?

Postby salted lipstick » Thu Jul 07, 2011 9:19 am

That sounds very intense. I feel partly responsible because of encouraging Lillyane to talk in the thread in the Sexual Abuse forums. :oops:

I hope you guys can work out what to do. I think pheonixrise's suggestions seem to be a sensible start...
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Re: Emergency! a little help here?

Postby chibixal » Thu Jul 07, 2011 1:41 pm

Phff, that josh kid, I know him. He's a lil jerk. He's 15 and he is trying to protect the secret. I'd like to punch him in his face. He is angry because 17 years ago after he talked Lilly into runin away forever he became suicidal and he self harmed so gray locked him away. I think he angry about that and he thinks keeping the secret is best for our system, haha right. Thats what he thinks. Everyone is locked away until they are calm again. It's lonely in here. I know aneisha is Ok but this josh guy...he's bad. And don't worry Lillyane really doesn't want her name back. Josh is very manipulative and needs to stay away from Lillyane for now so she can make her own decisions if she doesn't want to run away anymore then she doesn't have too. Right?
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My dx: AD, PTSD, DID, italics non active posters
(current host) Ane 22
(protecters) Jay 24M Josh 15M
Lyle ?/?
Sabastien 26M
Kami 21F
Rori/Roxley 16 F/M
(former hosts) Lillyane 10F Marie 5F Lil'Rose 4F
(gatekeeper)Gray ??
My husbands dx: OCD, Bipolar Disorder, and signs of Dissociation.
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Re: Emergency! a little help here?

Postby Aecy » Thu Jul 07, 2011 1:51 pm

~offers a hug if you'd like one~

I wish you luck. Hopefully, there will be at least one person in there who is able to face the situation.

Regarding the possibility of lillyane writing out her story, she actually gave Vie the idea of telling her own story as follows: "Once upon a time, little girl..." Telling a story about little girl instead of herself made her feel less vulnerable and hurt less while telling it. Maybe that will make things easier for her to express when things calm down?
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Re: Emergency! a little help here?

Postby chibixal » Thu Jul 07, 2011 2:10 pm

Sounds like a good idea to write a story about a lil girl, hey but Lillyane is not coming out for a while I guess. I talked to aneisha a bit she's ok just worried. Gray is making me stay out until the situation is under control. Only thing is like, hey I really am not wanting to deal with this er, crap. I'm usually just stuck here in a hole and people are just pouring more junk on top. I too damn young or old or whatever to deal with this haha I have to be one of the two right! But anyways. How do I deal with this josh kid. Can I run him over with a car? No think of it...me trying to run him over...yeah..
My dx: AD, PTSD, DID, italics non active posters
(current host) Ane 22
(protecters) Jay 24M Josh 15M
Lyle ?/?
Sabastien 26M
Kami 21F
Rori/Roxley 16 F/M
(former hosts) Lillyane 10F Marie 5F Lil'Rose 4F
(gatekeeper)Gray ??
My husbands dx: OCD, Bipolar Disorder, and signs of Dissociation.
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Re: Emergency! a little help here?

Postby Aecy » Thu Jul 07, 2011 2:36 pm

chibixal wrote:Sounds like a good idea to write a story about a lil girl, hey but Lillyane is not coming out for a while I guess. I talked to aneisha a bit she's ok just worried. Gray is making me stay out until the situation is under control. Only thing is like, hey I really am not wanting to deal with this er, crap. I'm usually just stuck here in a hole and people are just pouring more junk on top. I too damn young or old or whatever to deal with this haha I have to be one of the two right! But anyways. How do I deal with this josh kid. Can I run him over with a car? No think of it...me trying to run him over...yeah..

That makes sense.
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Meh. You know, somebody's gotta deal with it. And if you face it instead of running, you'll get some growth/strength out of the deal, lose or win, so it's actually a nice chance to get better and grow. Right?

Hmmm. This Josh kid sounds like he's really unhappy with himself over the bad results of what he tried to do for everybody's good. Now, he's taking his self-hatred and everything out on everybody. Running him over isn't good. Trust me on that. Yah can't kill those inside. You can only make them hurt, which can make them a freakingheckuvalot worse. Might be part of why he's acting out so badly, yah know?

First of all just do what yah need to do to take care of yourself, but try not to hurt him more than you have to to keep things safe.

But secondly, after the first goal has been accomplished, it sounds like josh is still just doing what he feels he needs to do, even if it's the wrong things, like telling lillyane to run away. He probably thought it was for the best, and was just trying to help. But yeah. Is there any way to confront him and maybe get to understand him better/make him feel better so he doesn't feel like he has to manipulate stuff in there and hurt you? Sounds like he'll be kind of a problem until he gets some help himself. Maybe it would help to forgive him for his past mistakes and tell him to stop hurting himself over telling lillyane to leave? If he was actually trying to help, then it's a mistake he needs to learn from, not something bad that he needs to keep punishing himself for, yah know?
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Re: Emergency! a little help here?

Postby chibixal » Thu Jul 07, 2011 5:43 pm

Well, running him over wasn't a solid plan anyway. Besides how am I post ta drive the car if he needs to be in front of it? Ch, flawed from the beginning. Haha. Anyways with all this talk about growing and caring, wait...is this sesame street?..
I'm not one for mushy crap, I just want this to settle. Right now josh is locked away. I'm sure its temporary tho. Once he is back out again I'm sure we will havea talk.
Damn why'd he have to lock everyone up? So now I'm all weird and talking to my self hoping for an answer...I know ill talk to the poster of twilight..lol
My dx: AD, PTSD, DID, italics non active posters
(current host) Ane 22
(protecters) Jay 24M Josh 15M
Lyle ?/?
Sabastien 26M
Kami 21F
Rori/Roxley 16 F/M
(former hosts) Lillyane 10F Marie 5F Lil'Rose 4F
(gatekeeper)Gray ??
My husbands dx: OCD, Bipolar Disorder, and signs of Dissociation.
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Re: Emergency! a little help here?

Postby Aecy » Fri Jul 08, 2011 1:25 am

chibixal wrote:Well, running him over wasn't a solid plan anyway. Besides how am I post ta drive the car if he needs to be in front of it? Ch, flawed from the beginning. Haha. Anyways with all this talk about growing and caring, wait...is this sesame street?..
I'm not one for mushy crap, I just want this to settle. Right now josh is locked away. I'm sure its temporary tho. Once he is back out again I'm sure we will havea talk.
Damn why'd he have to lock everyone up? So now I'm all weird and talking to my self hoping for an answer...I know ill talk to the poster of twilight..lol

~Pokes~ Sorry about teh squishiness. Sounds like you've more pressing matters to attend to.
And yep. :3 It is sesame street, only if it merged with elm street, AmIright? x3
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Re: Emergency! a little help here?

Postby chibixal » Fri Jul 08, 2011 2:35 am

I guess aneisha is too scared to take her place as host again. She thinks she doesn't deserve it I guess. Or it should belong to Lillyane. and now Lillyane thinks her coming out made everyone unhappy so she wants to stay in her room from now on. Ugh...what to do.. I don't wanna be host I'm not very good at things that aneisha does. Ch, we just cant go hostless so...this is quite the delema..
My dx: AD, PTSD, DID, italics non active posters
(current host) Ane 22
(protecters) Jay 24M Josh 15M
Lyle ?/?
Sabastien 26M
Kami 21F
Rori/Roxley 16 F/M
(former hosts) Lillyane 10F Marie 5F Lil'Rose 4F
(gatekeeper)Gray ??
My husbands dx: OCD, Bipolar Disorder, and signs of Dissociation.
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