Thank you all for being here!

This might come across as strange, but I'm so glad I've found this forum. I've been feeling really depressed lately, as you likely all know how DID can make life awkward to say the least at times, and I always thought that I was basically the only one to have it.

I'm in England, and have always been told it's incredibly rare for people to have DID, and never even thought to search the internet for support groups or anything... but I got really stressed out lately, and searched for stuff like online counseling, and eventually found this forum... and wow... after reading some of the topics here, and seeing that there were thousands of topics, suddenly I don't feel so alone in dealing with DID! Just you all being here has really made me feel somehow more comfortable with myself.

I have two identities (I was amazed when I found out that some people have 7-20 or so!), that have no shared memories... I've never experienced the way my partner acts, only witnessed it in notes and e-mails to my partner, and from what other people tell me. I've always gone by the nickname 'Doublebunny' online, which... well, it's an appropriate name for my friends, but somehow on a DID forum it seems like I'm pointing out the obvious... still, I didn't want to change my online name just for here.

Anyway, for the moment, all posts here will be by me (that is to say, not my partner), so I won't have to worry about colour coding or anything for now, like other people here have to do to distinguish their identities... the truth is, my partner and I don't often get along well, and she has completely different tastes/interests and sees me as a nuisance, so... yeah, for now, I'm not going to tell her about me going this forum until I've 'figured her out' a little more. Right now, we really don't trust each other!

So... anyway... sorry for the rambling... I just really wanted to say thanks for making me feel more comfortable about myself, I was starting to think that I was the only person having to deal with this on a daily basis, so I'm glad you're all here.

I was in a very similar position at first, stuck in a state of duality, total opposites. Actually, I'm in England too, so yeah, you're definitely not alone!

Welcome to the forum doublebunny! I married and I have 8 alters. I believe there might be more too so yep I know how ya feel.