Really unhappy.

Edit/mass delete: Nevermind.

Stuff just keeps happening that makes it harder and harder to keep things even and keep functioning rightly. We're sad over stuff and people triggering and making stuff worse and memory problems which are scary to not pretend they're not there. Need to find ways to spend time with people we don't feel threatened by and stuff too, but haven't because job scheduling.

Vie needed to vent so she did. But she shared too much. Sorry. We'll probably try to take a break for a while. It's not good to fixate too much on a forum thingy.

Sorry to hear you are unhappy... Hope you feel a bit better soon...

Relaxation!!!!!

I know what you mean! Sometimes I get too much, but other times I have things on my mind and I want to share them with others that have what I have. My husband listens, but he does not really want to.

What I do to relax.....

Go to the park/school and swing!!!! LOVE IT!
Amusement park with my kids and get on the rides.
Bubble bath, candles, soft music.. cold drink
Listen to my relaxation tapes.
Lay down relax in a cool, dark room and see if someone inside wants company.
Go for a drive and sing out loud
Go for a walk after the sun goes down.


.... I hope you find what you need to relax.

~hug~

i'm very unhappy too. my name is BAD. i messed everything up tonight. i wish i didn't exist so i couldn't mess everything up.

brandic wrote:i'm very unhappy too. my name is BAD. i messed everything up tonight. i wish i didn't exist so i couldn't mess everything up.

~Walks over, brings blankie, tears up and curls up next to you~ No you are not, or I would be to, and if I was, they wouldn't be nice to me now. Timothy says you can't learn without messing up, and unless you learn, you will always mess up. ~Sniffles~ I don't think you are bad and I don't think you did anything wrong. And if you would like a hug that would be ok with me but the others aren't sure if that is ok so they said to ask first because you might want me to ask first. ~Sticks thumb in mouth and sucks~

And if you want to be friends that would be ok with me too because I don't have very many friends and you sound like me and I think we could be friends.

-- Fri Jul 01, 2011 6:15 pm --

As a side note, we went to see the new DID-specific T for the first time getting an actual appointment.

We decided to write out a big email of stuff so we could go through it all in the safety and privacy of home, because we wouldn't feel safe having to talk about stuff face-to-face. [Facial expressions are major triggers for us. Some of us are unable to look people in the eye. ]

The goal we set for the session was to feel safe and by the end we did.
Ayame -I even got ta come out and talk all bai maiself fer a bit n it was REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY AWESOME BECAUSE I COULD BE MYSELF N $#%^ N OH EM EFFIN GEE!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEVER GET TO TALK TO PEOPLE!!!! IT MADE ME SO FREAKIN HAPPY!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!~BOUNCES AROUND SQUEALING HAPPILY~

Also yah.
We feel better. -w- n tha whole thing just kinda helped us learn hao ta treat teh kids I guess n it was good. We're startin ta feel better.

Thank you everyone! ^-^

yes a hug would be nice. i dont like to hug mostly because i don't know the person but you seem nice so i think i would like that. yes you sound like me and that makes me happy. and maybe we can be friends. what is your name/? mine is BAD.

brandic wrote:yes a hug would be nice. i dont like to hug mostly because i don't know the person but you seem nice so i think i would like that. yes you sound like me and that makes me happy. and maybe we can be friends. what is your name/? mine is BAD.

My name is vie. ~Wraps arms around you and nuzzles into your neck~ I'm the same. But I don't think you'll hurt me. You sound very sad. I want to make you feel better. And I like hugs. I don't meet people I feel safe hugging much, but you feel safe. And I think you need a hug. ~Hugs tightly but gently~
I think you need a different name. You don't seem bad. You seem sad. Being sad can make you act bad sometimes, but it's not the same as being bad. It's just being sad. Everybody's sad sometimes, but some of us are very sad, because nobody ever knew how to make us feel better.
Do you mind if I call you sad?

-- Fri Jul 01, 2011 7:19 pm --

We work early tomorrow. It's bedtime.

If you still want to talk tomorrow, I would like to. But if you're like me you probably need to rest now, so you can rest. if you would like to talk, I would like to talk to, whenever you feel safe enough to. It's ok to take rests or tell me if I'm going too far. I make mistakes too. And I don't want to hurt you. You seem nice. If I do something that makes you feel not right, you can tell me and I won't hurt you and I won't be angry. Promise. I don't like getting angry with people or hurting them. I like to try to fix things, so if I do something wrong, I want to fix it and make you feel better, because it makes me feel better too. Mistakes are ok, they can be fixed.
I like to fix them.

Just in case. Because I make mistakes a lot.

Thank you for letting me give you a hug. It made me feel good. I hope you feel better. You seem really nice.

Violet.
[Though everybody shortens it to vie now. Violet didn't sound warm and close enough to us.]

thank you violet for being my friend. I like your name its very pretty. and thank you for the hug
BAD

brandic wrote:thank you violet for being my friend. I like your name its very pretty. and thank you for the hug
BAD

You're welcome. I didn't like it at first because it was too... too...
Wraith: Stereotypical.
It was the only one that fit, though.
But I like it now. I'm glad you like it. You're welcome for the hug. Thank you for letting me hug you. I'm really glad you're here to talk to. It's very nice to talk to someone like me.

-- Sun Jul 03, 2011 6:13 am --

Also, B.a.d., your name is like our Malice. ^ ^ She's not really mean or spiteful, but she used to be, Malice: Because I thought I was "bad", so I freakin acted like it BIG time. Now that I know I ain't, the name's somethin to try not to be, yah know? It reminds me of it.
and she still likes the old name, even if she's not malicious. We'll call you bad if you prefer, but only if we don't have to believe that you ARE bad, ok? Sorry for trying to get you to make a change you didn't want.
- Aecy.

Are things going better for you? How is the new T?