my person

just want to relate this

do you feel-see there is strong I and weak i. like a whole person is idea but in parts he don't connect, and there are many blurred areas. goes back and forth

difficult to express

there are gaps. like a person is made of all their images and how they relate but no fixed boundary

i'm sorry if i don't make sense

and there's a struggle always because self is negating self, tearing down as they try to build up. thoughts conflict thought until it is just exhausted. Like running in circles?

I am really afraid of some of me

and the depression. past black, it is a clear empty soulless apathy. like i have been eaten by life. by the world

do you feel-see there is strong I and weak i. like a whole person is idea but in parts he don't connect, and there are many blurred areas. goes back and forth

I don't fully understand this. Do you have yourself and one other alter? For me, some alters are stronger then others.

and there's a struggle always because self is negating self, tearing down as they try to build up. thoughts conflict thought until it is just exhausted. Like running in circles?

There won't always have to be a struggle. Sometimes alters can learn to get along and work together, sometimes integration can happen, but then sometimes neither will. Are you in therapy?

He means he isn't a real person and he knows it.

Call me Lars by the way; I am actually the dominant personality out of this clusterfvck.

pheonixrise wrote:

do you feel-see there is strong I and weak i. like a whole person is idea but in parts he don't connect, and there are many blurred areas. goes back and forth

I don't fully understand this. Do you have yourself and one other alter? For me, some alters are stronger then others.

and there's a struggle always because self is negating self, tearing down as they try to build up. thoughts conflict thought until it is just exhausted. Like running in circles?

There won't always have to be a struggle. Sometimes alters can learn to get along and work together, sometimes integration can happen, but then sometimes neither will. Are you in therapy?

no, i don't do that any more. all my therapy now is writing and drawing, and music and movies

i always had a strong fascination with movies that are like about identity and that kind of thing. i like bands like radiohead, especially that song they did about disappearing. it how i feel sometimes

mostly my poetry is philosophical and very symbolic. i like that