Dissociative Experiences Scale

I'm newly diagnosed with DID ... I guess I've known for awhile, but was in serious denial ...
I know enough about DID to know how to throw my T off the trail of diagnosing me with it... finally started telling her the truth a couple of weeks ago ... therapy has changed a lot

... I scored 42

Scoring this myself I used to get around 30.. after plenty of crossing out previous answers, unfocused eyes and drowsiness.. LOL

Mara let us fill in the DES (and SDQ20) with a lesser degree of censorship recently, when she decided we were "allowed" to get help last month and that received a mean score of 40.35. from the Pottergate Centre (UK based).
You can email them and they will score both questionaires for free: www.dissociation.co.uk/


Thank goodness our therapist doesn't seem to be excited about diagnosing anything (Mara doesn't want any record) so we are allowed to be pretty open about most things in therapy. I expect if the lady attempted to classify us we'd never get to go again or maybe we're past that, don't know. I think we kind of stunned her when we announced that I am "a little on the dissociative side" first time we met. Oh hell, only took us three decades to get internal consensus on that
After we elaborated a little she seemed to think we were unusually aware of it all, but to a degree I guess we'll always be treading on eggshells.. phrasing everything ever.so.carefully.

When we were in camouflage mode Mara did keep finding herself retaking the SCID-D online every once in a while, but IMO really there seems to be little point without somebody there to watch you struggle with every question/zone out/self-censor.

Teatime wrote:retaking the SCID-D online every once in a while

Where?

i will need to do it some other time, too. i feel some bossy stuff is in me, so i want to see how I score when i am not feeling it
now i am 63
okay

Una+ wrote:

Teatime wrote:retaking the SCID-D online every once in a while

Where?

Sorry, it's been a while.
I think I found it via dpselfhelp.com originally.. but that was at least a year or five ago.. so I guess no longer available. At least neither google nor the dpselfhelp forum search can find it.

As far as I know the SCID-D has never been online. Also, the SCID-D is not a self-assessment tool and scoring it is a complex operation.

Teatime, perhaps you are thinking of the self-assessment by the same author, Dr Marlene Steinberg. That one is online and it deals with depersonalization symptoms:

StrangerInTheMirror.com: Steinberg Depersonalization Test

Una+ wrote: Also, the SCID-D is not a self-assessment tool and scoring it is a complex operation.

Completely agree - I understand that it is not suitable for self-assessment. Curiousity made me look anyway

Una+ wrote:Teatime, perhaps you are thinking of the self-assessment by the same author, Dr Marlene Steinberg. That one is online and it deals with depersonalization symptoms:

StrangerInTheMirror.com: Steinberg Depersonalization Test

Definitely took the Steinberg, yes, but I am pretty certain I came across the SCID-D as well.. I am positive it was online (maybe in some bootlegged literature?) Anyway - sounds like it's a good thing it's no longer around so nobody else can trick themselves self-assessing.

WOW. I scored 77.... I looked at it and laughed. I guess it's kind of a relief for me, for the longest time I've been fighting with the argument that I don't have alters I'm just insane. Well if this isn't enough proof for myself then I turkey nut be insane ~ jackilyn truly must*



Turkey nut? The heck autocorrect?

Una+ wrote:As far as I know the SCID-D has never been online.

Seems strange to me it has never been online (legal or otherwise).
I think I've seen it once online. Was just curious too Looked at a few questions, just to get an idea, but avoided looking further for fear of screwing up the test if I ever needed to do it. It was quite long (far, far longer than the DES) and scoring (there were some instructions at the bottom) seemed quite difficult.

I just took the DES yet again, now it's 33. Still not sure how to fill it in. For example, "12. Some people have the experience of feeling that other people, objects, and the world around them are not real", I do have this occasionally, quite strong (I know the world is real, but it just feels far away, but not as in distance, more like a 4th dimension or something like that). It happens maybe once in a week or a few weeks. I filled in 20 (3rd bullet), but I'm not sure that's right (maybe more, because I do experience it like it's written there, or less, because it happens not that often... except for right now when I'm writing this ).

I got a 74....On the Dissociative experiences test Is that really bad?

57 on the depersonalization test....