Could this be DID?

Welcome to our club, under ice. You belong here.

Thank you carpediem and Una.

C, it's probably a good idea for you to leave that book until a little later.
And Una, whatever there may be behind those memories and experiences that have been puzzling me for most of my life, at least coming to this forum has given me something more potentially realistic (which is the possibility of my psyche trying to work out something) instead of supernatural phenomena, which has always been an unsatisfactory explanation in any case.
All my life I've tried to connect the dots without realizing that I am the connection. All along the way I've been having issues with trust, self-esteem, communication, stress and so on, but since it more or less comes and goes, and I forget about the difficulties as soon as they vanish from my sight I've managed to stumble on for a long time. I've always said that I don't want to live in the past but the past seems to live in me.

Oh Good! You found where you belong.


Here with us!

He's been out again today, and we're here together. He started to cook for me, and I'm grateful because I'm tired.

I didn't remember how helpful he is and how much he brings clarity to what I feel, well, what we feel.
I've been wishing for him to come back, perhaps partly inspired by this forum. '
Is it wrong to think that I wished him back? Maybe I just imagined him back because I wanted him to be around again. Well, I don't really care. He makes everything feel softer.