Alters Going Underground

At times, some of my alters have spoken directly with my therapist. At other times I convey their sentiments. About a month ago, I disclosed some info one would have preferred remain a secret, but that was only so he could use it as an opportunity to drive the bus. As long as his motive remained hidden, he could act covertly to get his way. My disclosure thwarted that plan.

For about a week afterward, the alters maintained radio silence, like they were all uniting with my upset alter and going on strike by giving me the silent treatment. Eventually, a trigger happened and one popped out, then over the next couple of days we were moving back to normal with switching going on as before my disclosure.

I know "they" are all me, yet they can seem so separate. The DID roller coaster ride is not fun. I dislike being my own theme park!

Most of today was OK. Then, I crashed emotionally a few minutes ago. Feel depressed, overwhelemed, anxious, etc.

Fortunately, I have therapy tomorrow afternoon. Some days are more fun than others! Thanks for letting me vent.

I know where you're coming from here. Sometimes it seems too quiet (after a period of being able to communicate inside). Something can trigger the silence or it can just happen but it freaks me out! I hope you're doing better now .

Yeah.. I know how that feels. Whenever we get in a fight over something stupid, like what to eat for lunch, they might just go quiet for the longest time. At first Id be like "Ugh. Thank you.. A moment of silence." an hour later... "Guys...? *looks around* Kendra? Kylee? Liiiilllllly? Dx Fine. Screw you. I didn't wanna talk to you anyways." Next thing I know someone's triggered and magically we all make up and things go normal. xD Gives me such the headache sometimes.

Thanks, y'all! This week has been more "normal" with plenty of chatter going on!