Voice Changes and Half-switches

Lately I've found that after my alters "leave" and I switch, my voice isn't my own voice.

I know I'm in control during those times, I know I'm moving my own body and talking and feeling my own emotions and everything....but my voice still sounds exactly the same as whoever was out "last" for at least an hour. After a while my voice will randomly "break" and go back to how it usually is.

The voice change irritates me because people keep thinking I'm someone else and not believing me when I say it's actually me.

Lex here,

The voice thing goes both ways, half the time my voice isn't mine when I first come out.

I think we're having switching issues. I can't separate properly from Nighter, the host (the one who wrote above) as quickly or easily as I used to anymore.

Is this integration or something?

Or just half-switching and not quite separating identities fast enough?

Is the bodies voice box on delay or just screwed up?

Seriously, I want to figure this crap out before it ticks all of us off too much.

I really don't feel a need to get into any more arguments over why I'm not going away when she wants me to, or why I'm still 'out' when I'm actually not. I mean, sure I like to pretend I'm not me sometimes...but I always fess up eventually.

Everyone's lack of trust in me, and in each other over switching is getting on my nerves too.

Any explanations, suggestions or opinions on this? I'm so confused.

Ummm... We get this sometimes when we are speaking. And we get it a lot when we are writing. It will be the previous person's handwriting/speaking until the switch sort of "gets all the way there". We think it developed as a natural means of disguising ourselves so that the change wasn't so sudden that other people might pick up on who was out and try to exploit them. For us the speed of a "clean" switch seems to be based upon how safe we feel to reveal our true selves to whomever we are talking to. It is controlled by a moderating personality for us. As in if you don't follow the rules and act like whoever was out before you, you will be quickly forced back inside. It's not something we even question anymore.

We don't sign our names

Nighter, In my surfing the 'net' if I find something (about this issue)I will post here.

Thank you for the replies and the offer, it's good to know I'm not the only one that this kind of thing happens to.

I've also noticed that my ability to read and write changes after Leasey (who cannot read or write very well for an 8 year old) has been out. I had trouble counting two dollars yesterday, then I couldn't read the name of the pizza I wanted, so I had to point to the picture....*sigh*

This will be interesting to contend with when I go back to school next month....anyone got any excuse other than "I can't read that" for me to give to my teachers? I'd really prefer not to tell them about my "disorder" so there's got to be another explanation.

Seems there's more going on than just vocal changes after all.

We have taught our littles better vocabulary, reading, counting etc so that they start to blend in a bit better. That'd be more of a long term thing for you to try.

In the meantime I suggest you use the excuse of having an eyesight problem that cannot be corrected with glasses. This was initially true when we were younger: We were born with a lazy eye, a condition which means one eye is slightly turned out to the side, meaning that judging distances and gaining eyesight focus is much more difficult. We had an eye patch when we were younger in order to strengthen the muscles to try to focus that eye back in again. But because the doctor's didn't notice the lazy eye until we were a bit older (maybe 7 or 8y.o.) it couldn't be fully corrected.
Anyway the eyesight problem excuse should work for you just fine. It sort of is an eyesight problem, in that the littles haven't learnt to use their eyesight to be able to recognise and read things yet

Ironic thing is that I have always had a ligament in my right eye that is shorter than the others (the joys of being born 3.5 months prematurely and having certain parts of physical growth lag behind other parts) and even though I can control it now, it sometimes slides out when my eyes are tired and makes me see double.

I also have severe photophobia (its not an actual phobia) which is basically really bad light sensitivity that forces me to wear sunglasses by day unless I want to be blind and have severe migraines.

So, there is my excuse right there.

I'll keep my sunnies off for half an hour, wait til my eyes start to water and become bloodshot, then i'll control my eye so it turns to the side and unfocus my gaze, then tell the teacher and ta da, excuse made.

Thank you for saying that, I don't think I would have thought to use that excuse on my own.

Wow, the eye issues have actually done something good for once. Win for that. Heh. This almost makes up for the effort of having the issue in the first place.

Lex, can't you go make your own posts instead of editing mine?

No, to lazy. Cbf.

T_T. Ignore random comments, I'm apparently not allowed to delete it. *facepalm*

Glad to be of help! Sorry to hear that you do have to contend with an eye issue though...

My biggest issue is that I have to pass for him so much that some of the times I get to be myself I end up acting like him anyway. :\ "He who fights with monsters..." and all that.

Sith Lord 13 wrote:My biggest issue is that I have to pass for him so much that some of the times I get to be myself I end up acting like him anyway. :\ "He who fights with monsters..." and all that.

When he's around you sorta talk like him. I don't know how to desc. it. You two, alone, hae totally different voices though IDK how people wouldn't notice.
good they don't though right?
morgan

For myself, there are two scenarios that are happening when I am out but my voice or facial expressions are different-

a) Someone else is awake or triggered and is in the background.
b) It is actually me, but I am beginning to 'blend' and acquire traits of the others, a sign of healing.

If the reason is a), try asking what their reason for being awake is or if they were triggered by something, and
if there is something they would like to talk about or something you can do to help them be at ease.

If the reason is b), it may be a little scary at first, but picking up traits of the others is a good thing,
especially if you were more monotone/lifeless like I was when I first emerged a few years ago.
Now I am slowly becoming more rounded as it is safer to express my traits myself.

"Integration" to me doesn't mean losing your alters, or fusing with them.
It means blending with them, so that you are more seamless and able to converse/share traits.