Nice.
Over the past three years or so I've pretty much given up on all the annual celebrations... Birthdays and christmas especially. I forget the most important birthdays. The people who I hope to write don't write. The people I don't want to know send happy wishes though. People make a fuss which I don't want. I don't get anything done that I want. I actually seem to have less freedom on my birthday (early January) than what I do any other day of the year. Especially the freedom to enjoy my day, be myself, and do the things I like.
This year, Christmas wasn't so rough. New Year's was not very exciting. Oh look, we changed our calendar. My birthday really, really sucked. Everyone seemed to want to use me, shut me down and tell me everything they hated about me.
It's not that I was asking for it. With 2010's discovery of a nocturnal and pretty active alter, who likes this sort of thing, I did my best to play the celebration and goodwill game. I opened presents, I didn't grumble or complain or express my deep feelings of dread... But I didn't have to for things to just dive downhill.
On the other hand, this apparent alter (with whom I've as yet been unable to interact without someone to pass messages) is said to like this time of year very much. It seems that he needs to be loved and respected right now, and Christmas could bring that. That's speculation, but yeah he LOVES this time of year, I hear.
He's all round a very very nice guy. I don't know what baggage he has, but he doesn't seem to project it all onto the world around him like I do. He'd be a truly amazing family member or friend or whatever, I think.
This huge positivity seems to carry over into his love for christmas and birthdays.
Shame we don't hear from him much since christmas

. He won't/can't talk to me at all yet... I hope he enjoyed our birthday more than I did.
"Responsible for bringing out my darker side, I try to hide when I feel that it's my time, to inflict all the damage, some indescribable pain" -- Sevendust