Here goes...

Hiya,

It's good in some ways to know you've seen worse, but I still feel bad about it really... anyway, enough beating myself up. Curious little thing happened today - as you can see on the "inside friend" thread, I seem to have an alter I'm not even faintly aware of. I have no idea where she came from or what she's doing, yet she's posting. I think she must have been out for a couple of hours after a nasty row I had with my mother - I tried to explain a little about Jen, and the other people within my mind, and she didn't seem to get it at all. Jen went off the rails, and I withdrew too... I thought I just became "blank" or "empty" when I did something like that, but now I'm wondering if there are other people!

On the brighter side, I'm seeking help now. I was seriously worried after Jen started going out of control, and I've spent today getting myself sorted out and ready to deal with this. The more I think about it and try and work out what I'm doing in here the more seems to appear and sort itself out. I'm trying to communicate more with my system, thanks for all the advice from EVERYONE here.

Emily.

How has everything been?

smallcat wrote:Curious little thing happened today - as you can see on the "inside friend" thread, I seem to have an alter I'm not even faintly aware of. I have no idea where she came from or what she's doing, yet she's posting.

Yeah, I saw that But I think she said something about her not being wanted Did you try to find her?

smallcat wrote:I thought I just became "blank" or "empty" when I did something like that, but now I'm wondering if there are other people!

Probably If you're not "there", that gives someone else the opportunity to come out.