just saying hi

hey Sadie here .. tend to come out when its close to time to go to work lately.
wanted to apologize i guess for being anti social. but we are getting tht way everwhere even in rl. depression is eating us up. suprisingly i havent cut anymore yet tho ..trying to avoid it.
we just feel like the storm and rain inside never stops we feel no good to anyone esp. ourselves. we dont feel we are living at all but merely existing and wastig oxygen been having lots of suicidal idealizations.. no worries we wont attempt anything. we sleep alot at home..

anyhow just letting yall know we are still alive..
SADIE

Hi Sadie (& Hiding & Sarah)!
Glad to hear that you are making good choices even tho you feel bad *pat on back*

I have been thinking a lot too about what my purpose is. Sometimes all I do all the time I'm not at work is feed and watch the birds. (Ive got quite a cardinal orphanage going eating fancy food) I think this feeling happens most when me or Meagan is depressed so I try to remember how this feeling has come and passed before and prob will again. But I feel ya. It's REALLY hard

Thanks for checking in. It gives us the courage to do the same sometime (i always worry that i should have some really big issue in order to post. But sometimes I just need toknow that someone else knows I am here.

Hope it gets easier for ya real soon. 

thanks infint.
we have alot of sotrmy weather now from this tropical depression hermes or whatever its called.. it is exactly like the storm raging inside for us..

somedays its so hard just to move , open our eyes or want to breathe.

i dont know.. sorry iam such a f'ing downer.
SADIE

Don't apologize for feeling bad You can always complain here, if you're up to it... even if it's mopey stuff. I know that much depression really sucks

I hope you all feel better soon.

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InfinitD wrote:i always worry that i should have some really big issue in order to post.

No big issues required

i bes sarah and i bes 6. i no hapi.. i gota tri seeps cuz it lat an we hav werk in morning i hops we can mayb dy in seeps.

i sori we is not hapi an i sori we hav nuffin good to say andi sori lif for us alwas bes bad an i ..jus veri sori

i sori we is bad.. we no liks to bes s o veri veri sad.

we jus is. it nevr go way.
Sarah

I'm sorry you're sad, Sarah You are not not bad

hidingme wrote:i dont know.. sorry iam such a f'ing downer.

hidingme wrote:i sori we is bad.. we no liks to bes s o veri veri sad

Hey y'all. It's normal to have those feelings considering the trials of your life. No you are not a downer and no you are not bad. This just happens and I know many people on this forum have been or are now feeling just the same. Even I can hear Meagan starting to get very negative which means depression next.

Hang in there and try to do something around other people even if it is just sit in the park and stare (oh...well...I guess with an umbrella lol) or maybe go to McD's and watch the kids play.

D

Hi! Welcome to the board.