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Hi I'm Alia I'm new to the board and new to the Dx of DID as well. Have been trying to learn about it and to be honest trying to convince myself and the therapist that there has been a grave misunderstanding. To say the least I'm a bit spooked.

I have been diagnosed with just about everything imaginable from bipolar to ptsd. The therapist claims to have spoken with a couple of beings inside of me that I've not met as of yet. So, I'm really quite boring in that I don't have interesting colors to put for different people-- cause I don't know my people. Honestly I have been hoping they could do that shock treatment to send them running out of there, or pest control like they do for roaches or something. I know it sounds foolish. Just haven't gotten to the fun part where I have gotten to know them yet. Anyway, that's me-- atleast what I know, apparently there's more.

Hi! And welcome to the board.

Hi again, Alia

Alia wrote:I have been diagnosed with just about everything imaginable from bipolar to ptsd.

That tends to happen before you're diagnosed with DID. I guess not many people know enough about it, so it takes a while to figure out.

Nope, can't get rid of them. And you shouldn't want to, since they're all parts of you that are there for a very good reason

Have you tried leaving notes around, introducing yourself and asking your alters to write back?

canolime wrote:
Have you tried leaving notes around, introducing yourself and asking your alters to write back?

Hi Canolime, I think you responded in the other place. Thanks again. I haven't done that yet cause to be honest I'm a bit scared in the same way that you don't ask ghost questions (if you believe in ghosts)-- you are afraid of the answers. My therapist has encouraged me to keep a journal. She says that they are intelligent enough and all to read and write me back. Because of my lack of memories for huge chucks of my life, they supposedly have that. The goal is to find out what they remember. I just don't know who "they" are. I bought a journal and plan on starting one tonight. Scared of what I will find on it after some of what she has said about what she has found by talking to "others" and a episode I had at school a short time ago.

Yep, I responded in the other thread, too

You don't have to jump right in and start talking about uncomfortable stuff. Just introduce yourself, and see if they will too. Start slow. I doubt any heavy conversation will take place, at the beginning

canolime wrote:You don't have to jump right in and start talking about uncomfortable stuff. Just introduce yourself, and see if they will too. Start slow. I doubt any heavy conversation will take place, at the beginning

Thanks, I'll take any suggestion I can get. I'm afraid I'm in the deep, deep dark in this. I have what the psychologist is telling me, some chunks of missing time, uneasy feelings, and many unexplained things to go on.
I figured I would just tell them that I'm at an unfair disadvantage here in that they know far more about me than I know about them. I would just like to know more about them. Maybe their names would be good. I would like to know from them and not the psychologist. How does that sound? When and how did everyone find out the names of their others?

Sounds good

Alia wrote:When and how did everyone find out the names of their others?

When I started really considering DID, I asked one of my alters (C) what her name was. Then I asked her the name of my other alter (J). J told me the names of most of the rest, a few at a time, as I was more ready. A couple have introduced themselves on their own. It wasn't all at once.

Hi Alia,

Welcome to the group(s)

Alia wrote:When and how did everyone find out the names of their others?

Two of mine (Sara and idget), I kinda knew about most of my life but never really thought about it rationally. It just was, you know? Then once I got out of my parent's home (a bad situation), two more (Meagan and Veronica) introduced themselves to me. That was almost 20 years ago. In the meantime, I kept telling the docs and Ts my problem (slowly hearing from or about other voices) and at one time even considered that maybe I had MPD (looooong time ago it was called that lol). Well, that got me put on all kinds of drugs of pretty colors with about every kind of diagnosis: Bipolar, PTSD, Major Depression, Borderline, Schizo-Affective

Finally, recently, I had a psychiatrist who got frustrated because he tried me on just about every anti-psychotic and nothing. Nada. Still got voices (she says in a sing-song voice). Then he did an amazing thing! He turned his chair to face me, looked me straight in the eye (of course I broke that but anyway), and actually asked me what I thought the voices were! I said it seemed that some other souls had got trapped in my body, then the first doc ever, started asking me questions pertinent to dissociation and the voices being inside my head not outside. yada yada. And my T was great, and she made some of the others feel comfortable enough to talk to her. But problem is, now I got yahoos coming out of the woodwork everywhere Seems there is still a lot I didn't know and a lot I still don't (my T knows things that she said I'm not ready for).

I have been in therapy specifically for the DID for about 9 months - 1 year (time: funny thing isn't it: very confusing concept). Just recently I noticed some un-anticipated progress in a particular area that has plagued me all my life. So I know the therapy is working, but it's hard ya' know? I mean how many people are in there already?

Anyway, Sorry long-winded. Welcome again!

InfinitD,
That kind of sounds familiar with the bipolar and the meds and all. What are you saying with the voices exactly? I have those and they have been giving me meds for that-- and yes the meds really suck for that as well. Are those the visitors? Is that something that the meds are useless on? I'm sorry I ask questions but this is so new you have no idea. My psychologist told me two books to read and I have ordered them but they haven't come yet. You would know that she would tell me books that aren't in circulation anymore. Seems we have far more questions than there are answers for.

We had imaginary friends as a child and i'm wondering if they could have been like drop dead fred or maybe they are some of the visitors that are in there that we haven't learned of just yet.

Alia

Alia wrote:What are you saying with the voices exactly? I have those and they have been giving me meds for that-- and yes the meds really suck for that as well. Are those the visitors? Is that something that the meds are useless on?

You're on meds for voices, now? Are the voices inside your head (like thoughts that aren't coming from you) or are they outside your head (like hearing with your ears)?