was helped. thank you <3

Maybe, I've just never met anyone similar to me and its hard.

It could be a long time in the making thing, but I just don't remember anything. I have some random memories of my childhood, but most of that is gone, i dont remember really anything from elementary school, middle school is kind of gone as well, and I pretty much only REALLY remember stuff, from about early highschool and on

I had to be there, I just can't recall anything. so who knows how long it's been like this? I don't.

That does make me wonder... but unfortunately nothing is really popping into mind. Wish I could be more helpful...

I can't say I'm surprised. I've never openly told anyone [though plenty of people have wondered why i act like two different people]

ive just laughed it off.

this also makes me wonder if what it is is even real.
or whatever D;

and I just wanted to make clear that its not when im around other people. its 24/7

i know lots of people who act differently around other people, but that is not my case

Well... look at borderline, maybe? That's the best thing I can think of. They can feel like they don't know who they are, too, and can have different sides to them because of the mood swings. 1-2 days to 1-2 years is a big difference, though. Borderlines change much quicker than every year or two.

On a different note, can you see if you answer "yes" to any of these?:

"-Have you ever noticed that things are missing from your personal possessions or where you live?
-Have you ever noticed that there are things present where you live, and you don't know where they came from or how they got there? e.g. clothes, jewelry, books, furniture?
-Do people ever come up and talk to you as if they know you but you don't know them, or only know them faintly?
-Do people ever tell you about things you've done or said, that you can't remember, not counting times you have been using drugs or alcohol?
-Do you ever have blank spells or periods of missing time that you can't remember, not counting times you have been using drugs or alcohol?
-Do you ever find yourself coming to in an unfamiliar place, wide awake, not sure how you got there, and not sure what has been happening for the past while, not counting times when you have been using drugs or alcohol?
-Do you ever have memories come back to you all of a sudden, in a flood or like flashbacks?
-Are there large parts of your childhood after age 5 which you can't remember?
-Have you ever noticed that your handwriting changes drastically or that there are things around in your handwriting you don't recognize?
-Do you ever have long periods when you feel unreal, as if in a dream, or as if you're really not there, not counting when you are using drugs or alcohol?
-Do you hear voices talking to you sometimes or talking inside your head?
-If you hear voices, do they seem to come from inside you?
-Do you ever speak of yourself as "we" or "us"?
-Do you ever feel that there is another person or persons inside you?
-Is there another person or persons inside you that has a name?
-If there is another person inside you, does he or she ever come out and take control of your body?"

Not remembering your childhood, saying things that you don't know why you said, and feeling emotions that don't seem to be coming from you, are more indicative of DID.

Thank you for responding Canolime.
Borderline did enter my mind, and I do fit some of the specifics, but i also vary greatly from some

"-Have you ever noticed that things are missing from your personal possessions or where you live? Alll the time
-Have you ever noticed that there are things present where you live, and you don't know where they came from or how they got there? All the time. I just found a rosetta figure today that I've never seen before, and I had to ask my family where it came from. they told me i wanted it when i went into the store one day and bought it for me. but..ive never seen it before
-Do people ever come up and talk to you as if they know you but you don't know them, or only know them faintly? Yes
-Do people ever tell you about things you've done or said, that you can't remember, not counting times you have been using drugs or alcohol? Yes...
-Do you ever have blank spells or periods of missing time that you can't remember, not counting times you have been using drugs or alcohol? Do memories count? If so, yes.
-Do you ever find yourself coming to in an unfamiliar place, wide awake, not sure how you got there, and not sure what has been happening for the past while, not counting times when you have been using drugs or alcohol? I..don't really know. I don't think so D;
-Do you ever have memories come back to you all of a sudden, in a flood or like flashbacks? yes, i think of it more like deja vu. I get deja vu A LOT, almost a crazy amount..
-Are there large parts of your childhood after age 5 which you can't remember? Way after age 5, yes. I lost a LOT of memories
-Have you ever noticed that your handwriting changes drastically or that there are things around in your handwriting you don't recognize? i have sometimes. but well, i know im writing both times. so...i dont really know how to explain it xD
-Do you ever have long periods when you feel unreal, as if in a dream, or as if you're really not there, not counting when you are using drugs or alcohol? kind of. but they dont last days or anything, maybe a couple hours or even a day
-Do you hear voices talking to you sometimes or talking inside your head? no. i dont think...ive heard strange things before, maybe somethings talking to others, but never to me. and i have really only heard that twice. if im really thinking about something, it will distract me and my thoughts get messed up
-If you hear voices, do they seem to come from inside you? the ones i described, yes
-Do you ever speak of yourself as "we" or "us"? i dont know, i dont really pay attention when i talk
-Do you ever feel that there is another person or persons inside you? kind of...yes
-Is there another person or persons inside you that has a name? no. ive never heard a name..
-If there is another person inside you, does he or she ever come out and take control of your body? i dont know ._.


See, this is what I don't understand. I read that the people with D.I.D have had horrible childhoods, and as far as I know, my childhood was great. i come from a nice family, financially stable, not abusive at all, so D.I.D. is impossible for me right? I mean sure, theres some memories I never want to re-live, but the parts i remember, my childhood was ideal

edit; also, nobody ever talks to me in my body. sure maybe ive heard other people talking to each other [MAYBE] but ive never met anyone else in here.

dont you guys know each other? and stuff D; i just...wouldn't i know? =[

That's a lot of yes's and maybe's.

ShawneeAlice wrote:-Have you ever noticed that your handwriting changes drastically or that there are things around in your handwriting you don't recognize? i have sometimes. but well, i know im writing both times. so...i dont really know how to explain it xD

That happens to me, too... I wonder if it has to do with who's closer to the front

ShawneeAlice wrote:-If there is another person inside you, does he or she ever come out and take control of your body? i dont know ._.

Well, do you ever feel like you're not in control of your body/speech?

ShawneeAlice wrote:See, this is what I don't understand. I read that the people with D.I.D have had horrible childhoods, and as far as I know, my childhood was great. i come from a nice family, financially stable, not abusive at all, so D.I.D. is impossible for me right? I mean sure, theres some memories I never want to re-live, but the parts i remember, my childhood was ideal

Well... not to be Miss Obvious, but you don't really remember your childhood, right? If you don't remember it, you don't know for sure. It's like someone looking from the outside. Anyway, you don't have to have had a horrible childhood, overall. There could have been a family friend or someone who was mean, or you could have seen something traumatic. It doesn't have to be an abusive family.

ShawneeAlice wrote:edit; also, nobody ever talks to me in my body. sure maybe ive heard other people talking to each other [MAYBE] but ive never met anyone else in here.

dont you guys know each other? and stuff D; i just...wouldn't i know? =[

If they're talking to each other, I think that still counts. Maybe you have to be the one who starts talking to them. Yell out (in your head... like thoughts) a hello and introduce yourself, and ask if anyone could talk with you. Or, write a note somewhere they can find it, and ask them to write back. Maybe they will, maybe they won't, but it's worth a shot.

I kind of knew them, but I didn't know they were really there I don't believe knowing them is a requirement for a DID diagnosis A lot of people don't know, before they figure it out.

Canolime;

Really? Wow..and, all day today I was just thinking about things..it might be possible i have it...its so hard to accept it, i dont know if I can D;

And...is it possible the "trauma" that made it possible was from other people? I was constantly bullied and teased my whole life for things i had no control over.

also, it does seem like im sometimes not in control.

and i just realized today, kind of today, that...I do kind of.."wake up" sometimes. As in, all of a sudden its like I "wake up" and don't remember anything that just happened..

is this really happening to me?

ShawneeAlice wrote:it might be possible i have it...its so hard to accept it, i dont know if I can D;

That happens to most multiples Most go back and forth on it, too

ShawneeAlice wrote:And...is it possible the "trauma" that made it possible was from other people? I was constantly bullied and teased my whole life for things i had no control over.

I think it's almost always caused by other people. Anything that was too much for you to handle, could have caused it.

ShawneeAlice wrote:also, it does seem like im sometimes not in control.

If you're really not in control, but can still see/hear what's going on, that would be when an alter takes over and you're co-conscious with them.

ShawneeAlice wrote:and i just realized today, kind of today, that...I do kind of.."wake up" sometimes. As in, all of a sudden its like I "wake up" and don't remember anything that just happened..

That would be losing time. It's confusing, huh?

ShawneeAlice wrote:is this really happening to me?

I think so. But you're not the only one... everyone on this forum has the same kind of things happening. So you have people who you can talk to

Losing time is definitely confusing...I thought that happens to everyone...-.-

Anyways, thank you canolime.

I'm still sort of in denial..even though there is evidence right in front of me, but i really appreciate you talking to me.

ShawneeAlice wrote:I thought that happens to everyone

I've heard of multiples saying that before

ShawneeAlice wrote:i really appreciate you talking to me.