some one please help before they take evrything i love away

Should've guessed you were over here. That is totally ###$ up!! Makes me so angry. I'm in the UK too, I'll do some research in the mean time if there's anything we can do for you or Maria let us know.

-ker & a bunch of others :p

thank you for all your support finally i don't feel alone with having did..... my therapists aren't did speacialists there busy trying to find one but for the mean time they stuck me on prozac and i go every 8 weeks to see them because they are intimidated by me.. i've been passed around and made to feel like a freak show iv seen 7 different therapists since october last year and yet no one can relate or understand because they just don't seem interested to help me they just shoving me on different medication and trying to quick fix me which isn't going to happen as i have alot to go through but now that trust has been broken i am very relucant to discuss my past and maria is simply not going to co-operate with them now... as for the breech of discussing my abuse with my mother im seeing my family lawyer reguarding that becuase it should not of been discussed with my mother it is illegal and extreme breech of the whole confidenticality (excuse my spelling my head is all over atm).... My social worker and health vistor try to provoke me and make me feel threaten when i had my 2 year old son with me they made me cry and breakdown infront of him and maria felt helpless because she new if she intervened she would frighten him because of how furious she is of it all, we both feel they are trying to provoke a switch to meet maria but we both no how it would result and it wouldn't help me getting both my sons home... these people are ment to be professionals and yet maria has help me over come more than they have in the past 10months since my nervous breakdown i asked them to help me and when i finally got some were they have come in and turned everything upside down again by removing my kids because i have did and they don't understand it and can't be bothered to read into... once again thank you all for support from both me and maria because its really nice to know were aren't alone and their are actually people out their who do actually listen and give a damn for those who just slightly more unique then others.
Paula & Maria

What are they using the medications for? It can work for depression, anxiety, etc., but it won't do anything for the actual DID.

ihavenothing wrote:as for the breech of discussing my abuse with my mother im seeing my family lawyer reguarding that becuase it should not of been discussed with my mother

Good.

ihavenothing wrote:My social worker and health vistor try to provoke me and make me feel threaten when i had my 2 year old son with me they made me cry and breakdown infront of him

ihavenothing wrote:we both feel they are trying to provoke a switch to meet maria

What the heck? They're making things worse, instead of helping

i told her that things are getting alot worse and if she doesn't get them home soon i know she'l try and kill us again the medication is to apparantly keep me controlled and not let me come out. i can't do anything as of yet not while they have the boys, i am furious they think i'd harm those kids. i myself would like to say thank you for the support maybe i can meet others who hate being referred as a alter or not real because i am my own person just as paula is totally off topic i no but i'm not suppose to post on here since paula gets paraniod reguarding my behaviour anyway, thanks for the support its giving her the confidence she needs to know she can do it and she can prove to those 'professionals' i say idiots who don't know sh*t that we are quite capable to look after those boys i love them like their my own.



Maria

ihavenothing wrote:if she doesn't get them home soon i know she'l try and kill us again

ihavenothing wrote:the medication is to apparantly keep me controlled and not let me come out.

I've heard that doesn't work for too long. *shrugs*


A lot of alters post on here I think Paula should let you post (as long as you're not going to cuss out members or anything ). It'll be good for you to talk to others who can relate.

im soo tired with all this, i thought my friends supporting me and trying to help really aren't... i have now been suggested that i should deny and hide that i have did my friend of years who has never meet maria is now telling me that she isn't real that im making it up!! sorry im just really angry that im being told i can't express who i am, it feels like the whole support system i apparantly had was all just lies now they don't really want to no. i can no longer trust anyone around me and they wonder why maria is aggressive and angry that she is always on defence against others.. everything is getting worse in my life i really thought losing the kids it couldn't get any worse but i was wrong because now my support system are no turning their back on me.
P&M

ihavenothing wrote:i have now been suggested that i should deny and hide that i have did my friend of years who has never meet maria is now telling me that she isn't real that im making it up!!

I'm sorry they think that I guess they don't believe DID exists...? Have they read anything about it?

I wish I had something good to suggest I know it's not the same, but I guess the forums will have to do, for now

nope she is a cynical person there are reasons she never met maria mainly because maria can't stand her and would probably attack her because she really really hates her but because she was my'best friend' maria avoided coming out around her. She hasn't even looked into did and now saying all this makes me feel helpless i told her not to talk to me or she would be meeting my alter i have lost everything because i refuse to hide i have did and im fighting to get my kids home why would i make it up!!! She has me furious she has maria so mad she can't even come out to vent because she made a promise to stop breaking my things and she knows something will get smashed....
P&M

Some best friend She couldn't even bother to check out DID before she told you that?

ihavenothing wrote:im fighting to get my kids home why would i make it up!!!

I don't know

were just going ignore her to be honest and concetrate on the more pressing matters at hand we've got more support off people on here then her and other friends if they want to walk away with their little theories they can they'l never understand did or what it is like unless they suffer from it themselves which they don't, people who are ignorant really annoy the hell outta of us...