How do i know?

I'm sorry if this bothers you, but I went through some of your old posts. I just wanted to get a better look at what you were about, and wow, you've been wondering about this since you first got here. Even your first post, on getting more info, mentions you making the character after your own experience. And then some of your other posts, you've been asking the same sort of questions I think a lot of us have asked. So, I'm sorry if my snooping bothers you, but at least it actually supports your case that you aren't here to hurt anyone at all. You're just looking for answers, same as anyone.

Nobody here, I think, can diagnose you or anything like that. All you can do (if dr outta question), is compare what you're going through to what you've seen so far. Also, has anyone accused you of lying (when you know you haven't been), or told you that you did things you didn't do, etc.? That was telling sign: two seperate reports from known people saying I do things that I KNOW I didn't do as well as strangers acting wierd around me and this one girl in my high school...she knew my name...???...I don't know her...

Anyways, the only way to know for sure is with the Dr-man or maybe with a lot of confirmed evidence from different sources that you can trust. In the meantime, just learn and observe, compare notes...

Also, from one writer to another: I completely understand about the book thing. You write what you know, what draws you in. If you were drawn here, there is a high probability that there is a legitimate reason for it. Either this is what you were looking for, or it'll lead you to what will help you figure you out. Good luck to you, and, if you stay, welcome.

@hidingme: The fact you're denying it means deep down you know it's true but don't want it to be. Everyone goes through denial phases with DID, but at the end of the day, it's in your gut, heart, and mind that all of it is true.

After thinking about what everyone has said I've decided to seek help from the doctor. It might take longer for me as I have to go to a walk-in clinic to get a referral to see a psychologist/psychiatrist. I feel like I'm on the edge lately with all of this, and I believe that I'm going to put the book idea aside as its making me feel uneasy.

I would like to apologize to those who I made feel uncomfortable, It wasn't what I intended to do.
I would like to stay around and let you all know how my progress is going and what the diagnosis maybe.

@cocoanutmonkey, it doesn't bother me at all as it means I was telling the truth from the get go. As to your question, I've talked with my boyfriend and he says that when I talk about them being around its normally because they are parts of me I'm not embracing. And when I do embrace them he says they become part of the background of my life. (i don't know if that makes any sense) I have been accused of lying when I knew I wasn't (its kind of been like that my whole life even when I was young)
I'm just really concerned about the lack of memories I have....that's one of the red flags that keep going up.

Mr. Bates~
i suposse you are right about that, but its hard to always see it from that perspective, ya know?
Thanks.

Ms. Nemo~
I apologize again for Sadie getting angry with you.. for the most part..that is all sadie knows ..is anger.. she has no clu e how to handle anything else so sometimes she gets angry about things she shouldnt because well..that is all she knows how to do.
anyhow i am sorry. and Goodluck finding a psych dr and getting a dx.. let us know how it goes ok?
Hiding

P.s.
putting the book aside for a while (at least until things get straightened out more for you) may be a good idea. Ive had to that as well with my schooling... i am 2 classes from finishing my bachelors degree in psych.. which I could do right now.. but I am just not ready for the added stress.. as it is I have begun having issues with SAdie because of the stress and such we currently have.