alters and sociopathy..

so its been a while since i've posted here. hello again everyone! (and a new hello to the new people as well)

i was reading through some recent journal entries in our journal that we keep.. and J wrote something about empathy that i didn't really understand and it made me quite curious. he was just pondering empathy and sympathy and how they were poitnless. i started to think about it, and i realized that... i honestly do not know if i've felt empathy. how would i know?? everyone i have asked has just been saying that i would just know. i react, but i feel like im just mimicking reactions ive seen, or reacting or voicing the way i know to be socially correct...

i have several sociopathic traits, but i don't think i am fully a sociopath.. at least, i dont know. its all confusing. . i just.. don't understand emotions? i dont understand why people feel the way they feel, or act the way they do. I like to poke at people sometimes to get the reaction i like.. but i wasnt doing it out of malice, it was just me not understanding. ive tried to stop it and tone it down, so im mostly apathetic now...

but... J was writing about the things he does when he is out, and how he manipulates the people around us... he was always the cold and callous one, out for protection through being manipulative and torturing mentally... verbally. ... would he be a sociopath? ... would.. i be? could a sociopath split? (im the original...or so i hope. its one of my fears that im just another alter and this is me stealing the core's life).... iunno. just looking to discuss. :]

Easy question, if you feel empathy that means you care how others feel and also feel what they feel on some level( in your brain there's mirror neurons that force you to feel what those around you feel). If you've ever felt sadness from watching a movie you've felt empathy. ###triggering maybe### If you're still not sure imagine someone close to you dying a horrible death, if you don't feel anything like I don't you lack empathy, if your sickened like the others in my system you have empathy probably. ###end of triggers### As for not understanding how other people feel or react that could just be social awkwardness like when you aren't expecting someone to take something you say so seriously. I am a schizoid so I don't feel many human emotions. I can logic out what emotions are for in a Darwinian sense. Still I don't fully understand many things like funerals. Empathy (defined as the ability to feel in its simplest terms) also flows two ways sociopaths don't feel empathy from other people, but they feel their own emotions. Then there are schizoids they lack empathy from others and themselves. Their are degrees of both and its spectrum like autism and what not. Everyone is manipulative to some degree, but the stereotype sociopath is willing to go to extreme measures such as murder for their own personal gain.

P.S. why do fear being an alter?

Jef

that "social akwardness" might be a form of autism called asebergurs (or however you spell it) its basically where your socially disconected and learn to act with emotions by watching other peoples when in times that you think are right you learn to read expressions and tones of voice too

my mom works at a disabillity center so i pick up on these things

This sounds a lot like Aspergers to us.

-Mik