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Im hurting!! I don't like feeling like this! She doesn't listen! She doesn't wanna hear it! Its like she wants to throw me away after all I did! Ive told her I am hurting and told her I want help and behind steel ###$ bars is where she sends me! Prison!!

dont know how to delete so erased it...sorry.. dont want to bother people

I was just saying this...

Cool you put trigger.

I know hunny but you both been through stuff and you're blaming eachother when you need to work together. What that thing did to you is nasty!! But don't let him ruin your life anymore then you can.

She is wrong for putting you in prison and I think she realises that and is sorry for that. You have done some stuff too which makes her feel this way towards you which is why you both need to communicate.

Without becoming angry, try to tell me what you'd like to say and want from her.

I'm trying to help you but you're not helping either. As I said to her you need to help yourself or others will give up. That's out of order what you just said. Come on, we were doing good.

Norma can you delete that last post to me, send it to me In private message If you need to word it like that but theirs people that will offend and I doubt you mean to do that. Delete it and message me if you want honey x

she hasnt been through nothing thats what you dont get. she thinks she has but she hasnt. Let me tell you something. She thought she had a ###$ right to grow up without me. She left me behide and kept trying to throw me away. I dont have nothing to say to her. But what I want from her is respect and I want her to try to understand me! I dont see how this is possible though because she doesn't even give me a chance and when she does it doesnt even last 24 damn hours.

Then give up on me! I dont ###$ care!! I don't know what else to do! I don't know what to tell her or you. bye.

How do you expect respect from anybody when you just snap? I didn't say I was going to give up I was saying that's what you're both doing to eachother.

If you want to go that's your choice but I thought we were getting somewhere?

People have to grow up Norma, they can't stay the same forever, why don't you have a rest, both of you and think about growing together from now??

I don't want to think of you hurting, but if you keep snapping at me I can't talk or help you like you just asked me to. You ask for help then snap at me when I offer it.

You know where I am if you want to chat. Or you decide you want to talk to her on here and want me to help you both which I think we should try maybe.

Think again about your decision Norma, I've enjoyed your conversation and you got a good head on them shoulders x

What else is there for me to do?? Im scared of getting rejected from her again. Shes trying to play all nice right now but my emotions aren't as strong as hers. Do you know how I can deal with her? How do I deal with being thrown in the cell? How do I deal with trying to get her to understand my hurts without me hurting her??? Believe it or not I dont wanna hurt her. I care about her or I wouldnt have helped her when she was getting hurt. I need her. I need somebody to talk to. I can't keep all this to myself but she is too weak. and angry. I don't know what she is anymore.

But did she have the right to grow up without me? That hurt me. more than she even knows.

Do you think Im ready to talk to her?? What if I snap on her? Im scared im going to hurt her more...Im scared to talk to her...she is just gonna lock me up again. I wish you knew how she treats me.

At the moment things are still sore and I understand you don't want to hurt you and believe it or not she said the same thing.

Its hard for you both not to though. She don't have a choice whether she grows up or not, that's what happens, and you can't blame her for that. I honestly think if you both try to calm down and rest and maybe start writin to eachother?? Why don't you write her a letter and say what you jus said to me... Explain you don't want to hurt her and you're scared she'll lock you up again but you need help too. I can be here for you but I can't work miracles, you guys can I believe in you.

Try to keep calm? I know so bad its hard not to. But you both snap and it goes to sqaure number 1. I'm not saying you'll be best friends straight away but you have to work at it.

I'm proud of the progress so far x

here it goes...

Its really hard for me to talk to you right now because you have offended me many times and it hurts. You know there is differences between us. I know you dont know the $#%^ i had to go through for you. Actually, I didn't even have to. I could've let you be the one to lay there and feel the pain when your dad was with you. I know you didn't forget that even though you were able to move on with your life. This is making me sick. I can't do this. Sorry.

-Norma

well done Norma, I'm proud.

Why don't you rest? X