i need sombody to talk to please

ok i know im posting a lot and im sorry about that but my best friend and the only person whoes ever supported me just abandoned me saying "he couldnt take my s&^* anymore" i accedentally brought it up in school and 2/4of my friends thinks its awesome 1/4is actuallly interested in the whole story and 1/5 (the boy i really really really like) said "why are you tellin us this stuff i dont care" im completely heartbroken and my alter Rozalina thinks its her fault and feels like shes resposible and that if she wasnt here that this wouldnt be happening to us. i try to tell her its not her fault but she wont listen. i was shunned by everybody in my school until 4th grade when my best friend wanted to help me after he saw me go into a panic attack and weve been able to talk about anything since and now he abandonded me after he promised he wouldnt for 4years everybody inside think that this is their fault and thinks its their fault and a lot of them hate themselves now (were all under17 including me whoes 14) im trying to hold the system together the best i can but i really need some help

im sorry im everywhere with wat happened guys the 3 of us are still tryin to figure out everything because theres a lot of he said she said and a lot of confusion with everything

Hi

Don't be sorry for posting. We're here to support each other

I'm sorry about all that you've been through. Maybe give your friend some space and time. After 4 years he may simply be tired. He may just feel overwhelmed. I'm glad a couple of your friends seem willing to listen . And the guy you like, I'm sorry he said that. It can really hurt when someone you care about doesn't seem to care about what you have to say. Maybe this is a sign he's not the right guy. You deserve someone who cares about you and is willing to listen and support you and your alters.

And remember, this isn't your fault. Nor should any of your alters feel like it's theirs. Your friend is having trouble dealing with this right now. That doesn't mean he's gone forever. It just means he needs some space and time to think. Also, remember that your friends aren't therapists. They haven't been trained to deal with DID. Even therapists get tired and stressed from their job.

Hi

I agree with Nessieblack10. He may just need a little time and space. My ex partner was also my best friend. I was totally in love and shared everything. This person supported me through thick and thin until one day she decided that it was too much to be my partner. I was absolutely broken inside and cried for months although she was still very much there for me as a friend.

Six months ago my angry alter took an overdose and she found me the day after as i had not returned any phonecalls etc. I almost died and she was there when my heart stopped for a few seconds and also my urine was black. After i was better she refused to see me anymore asking me how i could do this to myself, her and the people that loved me. She knew about my past, all the bad stuff i had been through and i tried to tell her about the voices, the family inside but she refused to believe it although she knew it was real as she had spoken to some of the others. She thought that if i ignored them that they would go away. She said that she was tired and scared to be close to me in case i would kill myself or lose touch completely with reality and it would hurt her too much.

I was so sorry and missed her desperately but respected her wishes. After a few months we started talking again on-line and then seeing each other (as friends) occasionally but no longer telling each other about the real stuff that was happening in our lives. Slowly the friendship has deepened once more and no she is again one of the most important people in my life. She believes now the situation and tries to communicate and help the others too.

before she was tired and needed a break, plus scared and confused. She came back to me in her own time without me asking anything of her. Now our friendship is probably more special.

Respect your friends wishes in this moment to be distant even if it's hard. Hopefully he too will come back to you when he is ready and has had time to process and accept this situation. It's not something easy and not something that can be "fixed" Be patient but don't give yourself a hard time. You did what seemed best and hopefully time will show you that it was the right thing to do.

Big hugs ,PM me if you want xxx

well my angry alter screamed at the boy i reallly really like today and started crying infront of him and he hugged me until i came front and stopped crying but the other kid, the one who actually knows everything about me and helps me broke all ties with me today he said "i cant take ur s&*#% so go f&*( urself b@!^% nobody cares about u or ever will"