Requesting Help - new here

I was just diagnosed today but I don't think I fit. I have not lost time like so many have and I am aware of the decisions being made. I do feel I am not in control at times but think that might be just a way of escaping my consequences. I am so confused. Sometimes i think I just made all this up in my head because I am so needy or something.

Also, I was sexually abused as a child but it was not extreme like the others I have read about. IS there anyone else out there like me??

thank you for your time,
Michelle

Hi Michelle. Welcome!

Well first of all, not everyone with D.I.D. has amnesia. Many of us do, but not all of us.

Secondly, "not as extreme" honestly means very little because it's awfully hard to compare one trauma to another in regards to how each traumatized person will cope. It'd be like if we both stubbed a toe. Yours might hurt worse than mine because our pain tolerances might be different. I've known people with abuse to be what I would likely deem a whole lot worse than my own, but those people don't all dissociate let alone have multiple personalities. Likewise, I've known people with D.I.D. who initially split after something that I would consider trivial, but to them it was very traumatic. So "which is worse" doesn't really come into play here. It's how you dealt with it as a child that matters.

Most (if not every last one) of us questions the diagnosis. Some of us more frequently than others.

Keep posting here all you need to and let us know if we can help with anything.

-Leigh

A very important factor in determining the severity of trauma is what happens afterward. How people respond to you, how supportive and nurturing your environment is, etc.

And the amnesia criterion is apparently controversial, from what I'm hearing.

It's a hard diagnosis to accept - but you don't sound like someone who escapes consequences at all. You don't have to have amnesia to have DID. Sometimes you have amnesia without being aware of it. Not being able to control what you do at certain times is a clear indication. And it's frustrating, because you want to control your own life. But you don't do it on purpose or because you want to escape a consequence - your mind has split through no fault of your own. Just write what you feel down here, maybe we'll be able to help.