sigh

i went to help my dad with his movie project today, to teach him how to use his computer.

the one thing im good at, the thing i take the most pride in, is computers. and i just went through 2 straight hours of him yelling at me, threatening to take away any support hes giving me, yelling at me for himself deleting things he didnt want to, and overall just treating me like im worthless and like i don't know anything about computers when he knows hess.


he's never been there for me, but he's never been mean to me. im just going to leave the family i guess. i only see them weekly anyways now. i just cant deal with people that abuse me, all the triggering, i cant have that in my life... now i know what its like when your own parents are causing it =/


bates i feel i understand you a whole lot more now.

Sorry you had to go through that. Wait a week. In a week, try talking to your dad about how horrible he made you feel and that you didn't deserve any of that.

i dont remember writing this. he triggered me and i've been losing time since. it says its the 21st now i dont know it feels like its only been a few hours. im avoiding him for a long time now