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Thank you, River Jordan, for your thoughts. I appreciate you reaching out, sharing your insights & helping others out of their living hell. Keep sharing. Thanks again.

Hey no problem!

Well I look at it this way: Any and every situation can be looked at in either a positive or negative manner. If you really wanted to, you could make winning the lottery negative or you could make the death of a loved one positive. It is really difficult, many times, to turn certain things around, especially when you are used to them being a certain way.

It doesn't matter what happens to you, it's how you deal with it. If you really believe something good is going to happen, it will. But if you really believe something bad is going to happen, it will.

Also, if there is a part of you that you are afraid of, try to dig deep into it and try to figure it out. It could be 1. You are afraid of it because you don't want it but you feel that it is supposed to be there or 2. You are afraid of it because you don't think it is meant to be there but you really want it. Never believe the "should" only believe the want. What you truly want will always turn out good and what you truly don't want will only be a fake liking.

If you really don't truly like that you have this darkness inside you, then you really truly don't have the darkness. It's all fake but it appears real. In that case, it is not part of you, so you have no need to worry. It will fade.

If you truly do like it, then you are afraid of it because it seems bad but it is really a part of you. If you lose the fear and let yourself be, then it will turn into something good and you won't be doing things that you don't like. I mean, maybe if you let the dark side go free, you won't end up killing things, you'll just like horror movies and stuff and maybe you'll write horror murder stories or something. What I'm saying is if you truly have a dark side, once you become unafraid of it, it will naturally take it's course and develop the way it is meant to be.

This somewhat goes along with what I said about making things positive. Just look at this situation as a test. Be positive because you can overcome it and you will figure it out! It won't happen over night, but take the steps. You can't get to the top of a building by jumping, you need to take the stairs...it's a heck of a lot easier.

Hope this whole thing helps. Not just you, but anybody. I personally think it's good advice in general.

Take Care

hi,for years i tried to kill my wolf "ghost" and ruth tries to kill me,plus they wanted a sacrifice of others.in2007 i decided to be nice to them instead,long story but after 1 yr of still being horrid to me,this last yr theyve been really helpfull and id miss them now.
now just the ones i dont know too well to deal with.

I too have an extremely violent alternate personality. He never speaks, but I can see him walking around. He'll walk up to a person, and when he touches them, a copy of them splits off, and he then brutally murders them. I know it's not real, as no one reacts to his presence. Even though I try not to look, I can still hear them dying. He hasn't been out in almost 15 years, but I feel like I'm losing the battle to keep him in. While trying to keep him in, I get extremely painful headaches, that have caused me to lose consciousness before. The headaches have been getting worse, and I can feel my resolve slipping. How can I permanently lock him up?