don't know what to chose..

what happens if your alters "get" integrated without the much needed emotional support the host needs.. does the host just go comatose.. like without feeling and real comprehension if ppl try talking to her. like she'll just exist in a survival mode not respond etc.. hmm this is weird.. she tried to integrate the little one and the teen one.. just coz if she suddenly went blind. theres nothing linking her to her environment. herself and she'd go more split/altered and no one would know how to help her.

crap this is real crazy.. out of this world stuff.. i feel like she'll go insane again if she doesn't have anyone supporting her. and she won't split she'll just go insane..

what should we(?) do.. garrgh



plus the host doesn't have friends currently, from the past she has some but they are not that knowing of her crazyiness she doesn't keep in touch at all with anyone/ doesn't know how to be mentally stable or emotionally the same... for even a day let alone a few years


this isss crazy


oh yeah she split? recently... and her altes keep on growing. (uncontrollably) as her environment isn't the same.. like her dad's had recent brain surgery and he's really upsetting the home environment and constantly triggering the wanting to be more and more amnesiac and running away mode- alter?)...

ha our past is a bit crazy too.. she has nothing good in her life atm.. she used to be guided but god but that fell down and then her fam started verbally abusing her like everyday about her immobile depressed state.. she could cope with just living on a day to day basis.. i suppose.. though she had a nervous breakdown??? (dr questions it) and she split her consciousness of the situation of her dads illness away from awareness.. and her subconscious made alters to make up for her lack of obvious personality . from then on she needed "helpers" to help her eat. sleep. shower. and like cope for her .. she started gettting less and less "conscious" everyday as she kept having to visit her dad so it's like after the breakdown and all the crazy dry heaving and the rest of not being able to rest relax ... she *loses train of thought ... argh** lol

anyway yeah tis insane.. dunno whats gonna happen next. crazy $#%^ or comatose her) fun fun arggggggghhh

sorry peeple just my mind going nutso.. i guess it's a real fear for them though. as they protect me.. ?

and they keep all the emotional fears/insecurities and just run with them a bit. they have no mental control atm.. :S

by the way its nice to meet ppl who are in the same situation.. though i wish we didn't have to be DID..?

am i d.i.d.. i feel it sometimes

I'm really not sure how to tackle this, or truely understand your situation. Who are you in all of this? Could you possibly explain the situation a little more clearly?

I don't think the host would go into a comatose from forced intergration, but they will definitely end up like me: a little out of it, mentally lost, memories shattered into fragments, and then have alters come back after a while because that forced intergration nonsense is only a temporary fix and makes everything worse.