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Hi,
I was diagnosed as being dissociative almost ten years ago. I guess you could call me "high functioning", or at least very good at hiding things. Although it has been something I deal with every day, I am still able to be a (hopefully) decent mother and wife. I moved, basically started a new life, and married a wonderful man almost six years ago. I was open with him when we were dating, told him about the dd, and everything was pretty much ok. Although there has been the wierd days with him asking me "whats wrong with you, are you ok??", etc., I was able to go on with life and just kind of, pretend, it away, and pretend to forget about it (it's all my imagination, right?). He has been undertanding to a point, but his family, unfortunately, has cried wolf waaaaaay too much with the "I have depression, I have anxiety, I have this I have that"....etc etc. every mental disorder you can imagine, and going around proclaiming it for the world to hear, going on and on to anyone who will listen, and it has sickened him a little to see (because we all know that when you have a real problem, you don't go around telling the world) So I have been careful that I do not sound like a whiner making up problems.
a couple of years ago we have moved to an area that has been very "triggering" for me. I tried to broach the subject today with him, but, he just tells me "you're fine, there's nothing wrong with you" and "it is environmental" and tells me to eat healthy and work out and everything will get better.
How do you ask for help when he believes that? And if I push it, he really will think I am completely crazy, feel cheated, and resent me, right?

Welcome to the forum!

Anywho, no, it's not "just your imagination", it's very serious, and you're husband needs to wisen up a bit or you could get hurt.

As the stupid expression goes, "Denial, not just a river in Egypt", and your husband is chock full of it. He needs to come to terms not everything is perfect and his wife clearly needs his help.

And you too! Stop ignoring it! This isn't something you can just put your hands over your eyes until it goes away! It's only going to make it worse! You need to take this head on!

Welcome algam!!

I understand your feelings about wanting to hide it from the world, and not wanting to come off as a whiner and all, but you really should try starting being more open about it and about everything that's going on inside you; otherwise you're simply still doing what was necessary when your dissociative disorder was created: surviving. And then you're really wasting something inside you. Talking about it and even letting control slip sometime isn't necessarily a bad thing. Your husband has never really séén what's different inside you, and that's gone on for years. He can't suddenly understand if you constantly shy away and keep hiding inside. Try to be confrontational about it.. it's important and definitely not whining.