hmm

i probably shouldnt be in here. i hope im not being rude. that is not my intention, but i will apologize ahead of time.

i do not suffer from DID or any of the sort, but i do suffer from PTSD and etc. I was severely sexually abused by my father as a child.

Lately, i've come to realize (also with the help of therapy), how much i truly dissociate throughout the day. i thought it was normal, that i was just spacing out like everyone else. little did i know, most people dont do it that often.

i want to know how it is that i came to suffer from PTSD, among other things, and not DID. some times i wonder if i might be suffering from it, just an acute version.

any insights? anything?

I have PTSD as well as DID, so I can only tell you what I assume to be the case for those who end up with PTSD as opposed to DID.

I think different people, especially as children, have different ways of coping. It seems that some of us are just more prone to dissociation, especially to a point of our minds splitting into many minds. For myself as a child, I'm told I was very creative (still am), very sensitive, and very intelligent. A lot of the multiples I've met are also very creative, were at one time very sensitive, and are very intelligent. This is not to say that someone who was abused and didn't end up with DID is boring, cold, and not that bright. But I believe those three qualities tend to factor in.

-Leigh

thank you very much for your insight.

its strange because i have a degree in psychology, yet when it comes to my own self, i have no idea what is happening.

its nice to hear it from someone who can relate to both sides. again, thank you.

Hi Tatietay,
I too am diagnosed as PTSD / DID and I tend to agree with Twilight. I think it boils down to the individual. It is not a bad thing that you don't have DID (sorry for the double negative.) It just means you were able to cope with it in a different manner.
PTSD can be hard enough to manage and heal from without the added burden of DID.
Take care of yourself and feel welcome to post here.
~Lark

the brain is a black box. as much as we wish we knew about it theres still very little that we truly know. and any ammount of variations between us and you could be the cause for the different outcomes

racial/ethnic background
history of mental illness in the family or not
every aspect of how you were raised as a child
what you had for breakfast on your 7th birthday and when.

literally every tiny detail could play a role in how we are shaped, no matter how small.

the best we can say is we have a good idea what causes it amongst us because of the things we have in common, but we cant make any absolutes simply because to sceintifically narrow it down it would break too many ethics

tatietay wrote:its strange because i have a degree in psychology, yet when it comes to my own self, i have no idea what is happening.

I have found that many people who study psychology often cannot understand their own psyche. It is interesting to think about though. Applying psychological aspects to others and to yourself is difficult due to many factors including self perception, subjectivity vs. objectivity, and biases. I'm a psychology student though and I feel to understand others it is important to understand yourself so you can relate psyche to psyche.

I often interpret the dreams of my friends, but I struggle to understand my own. Personal insight is far more difficult for me than empathy. I think that sort of thing is normal... or maybe I'm just weird LOL.