Alien Feelings

I’ve been able to get in touch with my other parts some, except the sad me doesn’t talk much about anything good. But, there this Alien feeling that comes over me, as in I’m not hearing voices, not gone but not really there either and I don’t feel my other two personalities. I feel lost I think but I’m pretty sure I still know where the coffee is but I don’t remember making it kinda thing. I feel out of place in my family, most of the time at mealtime and group type activities. Like I’m looking in and my body is numb but nobody saying anything so how do I know who or what this is? Anyone else have this that could help explain?

When I take a shower i feel very small, and I know where I am, and how to wash my hair, but I don't and I feel numb and as if i am watching someone else take over. It does feel "alien" and I felt this way long before I met the alters, but know now it is because of them that I feel this way, it is also why I have an odd fascination with aliens.

I dont know if this is helpful, but I thought I would share.
~Amber