Thanks for the advise and I do agree. With me, it's just that strong maternal instinct that when you see your child fixing to fall, you automatically jump up and try to keep them from hurting themselves.
Where we're at, right now, is he's doing great, again. I've got to keep an eye on him for the next month and make sure he gets his license and pays his court cost or he'll go to jail. Now, the problem there is, if he doesn't get this stuff done, he's more than likely going to run, again. If he does that I'll be held accountable for the $2500 bond.
I did draw up a lease agreement for his room, gave him a list of house rules, that mainly deal with respecting the other kids and adults in the house. He got his driving permit, today and goes to take his actual test, tomorrow. Then he'll be ready to find a job to pay the fines off.
As for the T, it was sort of his idea to go with me. I told him that she had 2 other patients with DID and she worked with a doctor in a near by town that does the hynotherapy?? Anyone know about that??? I asked him if he wanted to go with me, just meet her and see if she was someone he could talk to. It's not his appointment, he's just going to go in and have a quick meeting with her, than wait for me to have my appointment, but he said he is ready to deal with his DID, that he wants to go back to college, get his own place and he said he was ready to deal with his angry alter, because without getting him under control, no one will be able to get what they(they, meaning his system) want out of life. I suggested that when he gets back into school, major in business and minor in music if he really wants a career in Rap. I told him I didn't care if his life's dream was to become a garbage man, as long as he was happy and being productive. The state is willing to help him out in so many ways, if he will just go to school and maintain a C average. I mean thousands of dollar! They help with full college tutition, car insurance, car repairs, clothing, housing, furniture, books and much more. I told him even a crack ho would ride that horse till it fell over dead!! Not many kids get the opportunities he has before him and if he doesn't take it, when he gets older, he's gonna be kickin himself in the butt!!
Once this bail business is over, I'll still feel the same about him, but I'll be less likely to allow any of his drama to disrupt the household. But for the moment, he's being Matt. Kinfolk comes out at night, once chores are done and he goes into his room and does whatever he does with his Rap music. He wears his headphones, so he can listen as loud as he wants. Mr. Angry or Mad Max as we've begun to call him, has not reared his head. And unless I'm willing to join the Ganster Diciples, he won't talk to me, because, as he said, he don't acknowledge anyone who ain't "G". I think only therapy is going to help out with that part, it's beyond me, way beyond. But get this, Kinfolk says he's a "GD" but he says he's for the betterment of his people (kinfolk is black, Matt is white). So, he's from a different "unit"? of the gang??? I'm just a country white woman, I know nothing of gangs. I belong to the FF's, the Friends and Family Gang. You mess with me or mine, I don't need a thug, I got my friends and family to call! We all a bunch of rednecks, we don't need the law, we got plenty of wetlands around here, LOL. Please know I'm just joking.
But as long as Matt is willing to help himself, I'm going to have to be here for him. I will not bail him out of jail, again. I will not allow him to act out in the home. My goal is to get him back into college, his car is still here, that I was willing to sell to him. He's got over $2000 coming to him from S.S. He has the means to pull himself out of this rut he's gotten himself in and other than providing him with transportation and the basic necessities of life, food, water, shelter. I have no money to give to him, so he's going to have to go out and make his own. He's even going to church tonight! I'm not a religious person, but there is a part of him that is, so I think it's a good thing he's going. There, he could meet some people that might be will be willing to hire him or can help him find work.
I don't know, I may just need to commit myself!