Just Diagnosed with DID and Struggling

I was just diagnosed with DID a few months ago, and started hearing and interacting with alters about a month before my diagnosis. Not to bore you with all the details but life has always felt like it was difficult to live and now with this disorder on top of my already crummy life I don't understand how to continue on. I was always my own rock, it didn't matter if no one had my back because I had it. But now I feel mentally feeble and unable to care for myself. New alters coming forward, repressed memories ravaging my mind and body. I was a normal functional human being and now I feel like a mess of flesh and bones and no one has figured out how much of a horribly unhinged wreck I am. I suppose I feel like there is no one to relate to.

Having someone to talk to, or hearing other's stories that I can relate to feels like it could help in some way, but for whatever reason I feel like I am living with this disorder wrong somehow. Perhaps its the denial running it's icy fingers down my spine but the days seem to get harder and harder and I feel like I am missing some key information on how to make living with this disorder bearable.

Anyway, I hope to hear from someone, anyone. Anyone know of a good support group?

I absolutely melted down when I first started becoming aware of my alters. It's just really difficult and overwhelming at first. Focus on self care and just stabilizing yourself for now if possible, if you stick with therapy you can definitely work through this and learn to live well with this disorder.

The issue of community has been difficult for us too, it's really difficult to feel alone in this disorder but I feel like it's very difficult to find others to talk to who understand, especially online support groups. We only recently started feeling able to start trying to reach out to others more.

I hope you're doing okay. For us, it really did get better over time, but we really relate to what you've written here and I'm sorry you're in that place because it was very scary for us.

Man, we know the feeling. We became fully aware of being "we" in our senior year of high school, which also happened to be in the pandemic, and man it was difficult.

Once you meet and make friends with other people with DID, you might feel less freaky. I know we did.

Hi,

It was really hard at first. Host was totally freaked out and wanted to get rid of us. He literally told our T - 'Get these people out of my head!' He felt like a failure because he wasn't in control all the time. But we eventually figured out how to be a team and now it's pretty good. We look after each other and Host has figured out that being multiple is just as good as any other way to be so it's OK. He also doesn't have to do it all by himself anymore.

The memory sh*t still sucks tho.

Iain
(Yeah I'm an alter/part/inside person/whatever. But I'm not worth freaking out over. I'm just a teenager that likes to eat pizza and watches too much stupid youtube. I mean - really - is that scary?)