figuring it out... or trying to (a journey post)

ok, so i've been aware of quite a few states i have since last year, the first i figured out being a fictive. we aren't very verbally communicative, more non-possessive switching, instinct, and sharing feelings with the rare thought and possessive switch. we've finally decided to try to get a diagnosis, though!

it's a slow going process, but i feel really lucky my therapist is so cool and understanding (she pushed me to pursue a psychology degree in the first place, just because i'd use up sessions infodumping)

so far we've just been going through symptoms and when i have them or if my mood changes and identity shifts are actually DID and not my BPD, but i do feel semi-confident in knowing (semi just bc i've been in pretty intense brain fog lately and denial has been rough bc our amnesia has been worse).

we updated our goals today and i feel really good about this, and hopefully i can get the things i need bc of the diagnosis, one being SSI.

anyways... i hope everyone reading this is doing well!