I don't know how to stop being me

I am 14 but I'm supposed to be 24 right now. I usually just show up when Ezra is really sad, but I've been me for 3 days now and I'm starting to panic. I have no idea how to get the others to take over again, and I don't know how to feel better. I tried taking a bath, and petting my cat, and drinking tea, and doing all the things my therapist said to do to feel better, but I'm still stuck.

Also I think I messed up because I texted Ezra's friend asking if we could also be friends, because I'm lonely, but it didn't go well and now I'm worried I've ruined Ezra's life. I thought Ezra had explained everything to them but I guess not.

Also I don't even have a name, because Hal is the little one's name, and I don't like "Ezra", and I can't use my name because its Ezra's deadname.

As for the name, you can use any nickname you want.

I'm sorry about the issue with the friend. I hope it will get better with time.

Do you have any idea why you ended up "stuck"? If it is a specific trigger (situation, time of the year, emotion...) maybe your therapist can help you through it untill the others are back. Even if it is an intense sadness like your usual trigger, maybe your therapist can help you to "feel it through" untill it's gone and you are no longer stuck.

I know it's unpleasant to realize that emotions "go away" only by going "through" us, because we need to find a way to feel the feels that is safe (not overwhelming). My favourite exercises for that are in the books "Coping with trauma related dissociation" and "Healing the fragmented selves of trauma survivors". And my favourite exercise is to accept one bit of the emotion at a time instead of all at once. It makes it easier for me (less overwhelming) to feel the emotion this way and it helps me to "go through". Maybe your therapist knows the exercise and can help you with it. Or with a similar exercise.

Hi it is me again. I'm panicking right now. I had to go back to my parents' house and stay with them while I went to the doctor, and it's been a week now. I really really really don't want to be me right now. Please help me bring everyone back I can't keep it together if I'm in charge.

Also I'm sorry for listing everyone out like that on my intro it looks really embarrassing and half of it isn't right. I made myself a promise not to edit anything or erase anything but please ignore it.