We have managed to gain access to some of those locked files we had found …and several contained document subtitled Who am I?’ …with page after page of a ..what seems like a random date where maybe a host came forward in the past not knowing who they were So they write out what was important to ‘that-me’ in that moment which often resulted in a name they felt was significant to them in particular. ..and from then on it seemed they ‘became that name’.
Several stated the importance of choosing their ‘system nick-name’ themselves as they had no choice over the legal name. To many past hosts it seemed much more important than selecting a random name to be their ‘screen name’.
I ask as I feel ‘Mila’ holds much more significance to me than Ezri (more or less selected on the spot we happened to be watched Star Trek on satellite at time of posting) and though I get why…as ‘Ezri Dax’ (the character in that episode) was also an holder of others memories , as a name it still doesn’t carry the same significance to ‘this-me’that ‘Mila’ does.
‘Ellie’ is also currently struggling to decide whether her nickname is ‘her’, she also holds past social hosts memories but doesn’t want their names either as they are ‘not her’
We seem to change names a lot with the belief that changing the name changes who the alter is. ..which to us..it does. We only use a last alters/hosts name with their permission if they are to become part of an integrated blend and have given permission for it to happen.
Is this part of DID too then? How do you (hosts) and your alters choose what individual names to use? How do you choose which parts/fragments should have individual names or which are not separate enough (maybe just more like you in a different mood or role. Ie. ‘At Work-me’)?