For Persecutors to talk **TRIGGER WARNING**

eliseahorse, I agree with you on all points but could you edit your post to remove the racial slurs? they slip through the auto-censor. I do see your point about colonists parading around their "success stories", I just don't think the terms themselves are necessary.

for what it's worth, our persecutor would prob love to have a free space to talk besides yelling in our head. she's never tried communicating with anyone outside like this. I'm interested.

Hey vortex.

Unfortunately its outside the time limit for me to edit hopefully @snaga or other admin can.

For clarity I only used the slurs to emphasise the condescending tone that was being used. The way normies view us is as condicending as folk who use racist slurs see other races. I don't personally view other races as lesser. If I hadn't been so pissed off I'd have phrased it differently.

But I guess that's part of why I'm here. Because I'm unpredictable when I'm angry.

Looking forward to hanging out let's throw spaghetti and see what $#%^ sticks maybe.

Now that this has been cleared up, we shall let you get on with your discussions. I do not feel that I will join in with them.

Alice

The post in question has been edited, no problem this time but y'all keep it in mind about the slurs. Understood you lost your temper Eliseahorse and the context was easy to understand, nothing abusive intended so no harm no foul. Just everyone participating in the thread be mindful, that's all we ask, thanks.

Heh. Smooth sailing so far, ey?

Fine then. Let's talk. I agree, we need no redemption. So what if I used and slapped some folks? It's not like they didn't deserve it.

Seems I'm lucky with an understanding host who wants me to be myself-- just without getting her in trouble. It's a deal I'm happy to make. She's not even mad about the times I've interfered with her healing. She understands in the end I want to live just like she gets to live. I'd be out more if people weren't such pieces of dung. Just the tyrant and I that don't get along really.

So what is it that you lot want then? I want to live and be free.

Raven

I'm fed up with having to cross county line to meet up with fellow Kinksters. I'm fed up with the fact that only the respectable heterosexual side of our sexuality is allowed to be public or even indulged in. I want to make and openly keep friends with "undesirables" because you know what ALL our abuse has come from upstanding citizen types. Do you know who has never abused us, who helped us out when we were homeless? Addicts

I want to be listened to when I say I have seen red flags in folk around us cos I'm fed up of the ######6 drama when goodtwo shoes #54 exposes them selves as manipulative or what ever. If I sit back and do nothing its "why didn't you save us" and if I do $#%^ to terminate the connection or stand up for us its "that was uncalled for we could have made it right"

I want the normies in my head to realise that saving people from themselves is a farytale

You in one of those overly religious countries or something? They're pretty chill about kinks round here, even the queer kind.
My issue is that my host is in a relationship, and we need to be oh so gentle. I have no desire to ruin this relationship. I tried, but the gal is true to her word. Even though Grey made sure her partner would be up for some rougher sessions, that's her girl, not mine. I might be a btch but I've got standards and I'm not about to ###$ up the life of my host when she's been so lenient.
Guess my life was easier when White was host.

Ugh. The not listening bit... Grey isn't good at that either. I told her ages ago this friend was obsessed with her and that I didn't trust her. Shocker when that came out. Fricking called that $#%^. I always do. Now Grey at least asks for my opinion and reasons. Call that progress, I guess.

Ey, they all wanna be heroes. Maybe they'll learn they can't always do the "right" thing. Everything comes at a cost.

Also, fck this job. Glad she's getting us outta here.

Raven

Thats progress indeed.

Have you floated the idea of a polly v hinge? If the gf knows you are plural and the area is kink friendly then you finding a partner for yourself might be an idea. the bdsm community has been a life saver for us, even though physically meeting folk in my county could loose me my job the fact that I can sext like minded folk about my desires is phenomenal.

I'm very much into predator/prey play it is my therapy. I effectively reenact various sa incidents of our past but with the twist that we are big enough and strong enough to fight back. The others see what I'm doing and think its disgusting retraumatising and glorifying what happened to us they see it as proof that I wanted to be raped and thats why I was so ineffective when we were a kid. But its not that at all. Our SA memories were originally held by pete and it took a lot of therapy to separate him from those memories. Currently they are being held by our head space as a rather dangerous patch of sinking sand. Its a temporary fix that leaves all of us exposed to triggering ptsd related to those memories. I'm bigger than Pete stronger than Pete. Everytime I reenact one of those memories within the safety of bdsm I take a little more of the memory into myself - crucially with the knowledge that it wasn't our fault, that had it been a fair playing field we could have defended ourselves.

The country itself isn't overly religious but our area is, lots of sectarianism, Catholic kids are schooled separately from protestant kids as violence has been known to break out over how folk say the lords prayer or the colour of a football kit.

Hetrokink is tolerated, our mother figure has a lactation fetish and that is practically encouraged hucows are put in touch with the local maternity unit to provide milk for neonates. Milk donation, sperm donation and egg donation or surrogacy are all encouraged by the local sexual health clinic and are no more thought about than blood donation.

On the otherhand simply dressing slightly butch will get you in trouble at work. We had to get our Union involved because i was threatened with dismissal after a customer had complained to our workplace that they had "caught" me crossdressing. They had seen us dressed ultra fem at a public event in another town from the one I work in. Our body has light facial hair and we dressed masc for work so this customer had assumed we were bodily male. Homosexual colleges have been told to lie about their spouses gender if a customer asks.

If you could be host what would you changeabout your life.

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Polly? As in multiple partners kinda thing?
Doubt Grey's gal would appreciate that. Nor would Grey. Don't think I need it either. I've been given... liberties and creative outlets. Plus, finding a nice, willing partner in this miserable world isn't an easy feat anyway.

Sounds like you need a better work environment. Tough to find a good one though. Even here.

Ay, if I were host, we wouldn't be going back to studying. We would have said 'yes' when we got scouted for the national soccer team. We'd be outside more. Go swimming more. Heck, Grey loves swimming too. Just getting this idiot to go outside is like dragging an anchor.

Raven