Possum Journey

Things are not going great mentally.

Can't stop thinking about the bad stuff at all, and I've started thinking about it in a sexual way which is scary. Really stuttery all the time and our speech impediment from when we were a child is slowly coming back; I am having so much trouble with L sounds now. It just doens't make sense to my brain that my girlfriend doens't want to hurt or abuse me, and it makes me distrust her somewhat.

In addition, we've either had a new little split off again or we've had one make direct contact with someone. He has our deadname and seems to be about 5 or 6. He believes he's still in kindergarten and is very confused about the adult body and not having a penis. If he fronts tomorrow, I hope he fronts when he can talk to our partner system. Their hosts have psychology training and are generally good with kids, which is the opposite of most of our friends, excluding our ex-boyfriend, whom works a lot during weeks.

Distressed Dorothea

Sorry to hear about all your difficulties..I hope things will improve for you soon. Are you still in hospital?

Lily

TheTriForce wrote:Sorry to hear about all your difficulties..I hope things will improve for you soon. Are you still in hospital?

Lily

Yeah, we're still in hospital. Probably going to be here at least until monday which sucks. Just not getting better.

Sending tons of moral support. It's a rough patch you're in right now. Hope things improve soon.

THank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am here tonight cos mummy keeps getting scared and little or middle which isn't great. She's sposed to be 16 not 8-13 . Um tomorrow she talks to our therapist about her thoughts abougt the bad thing I hope its ok. Im scared shes gonna get triggered and then Sophie is gonna have to come out and SOphie will be scared cos she doesnt' like men and our therapist is a man. But maybe ill come out and that sok. Trauma is stupid.

Gonna try sleep again now, sleeping is so hard, hospital is so noisy and our roommates pump keeps beeping.

Bridie!!!!!!!!!!!!

We still in hospital and it stupid and the doctors dont no wats rong yet. we just keep vomiting a lot (3 litres a day) and the doctors haven't work it out yet and now we on a drug for pain relief that makes us real switchy and our head so so so noisy. I hope so so so so so much they can fix us

hope everyone is ok

Bridie!!!

Rest well! I hope the doctors find what's wrong very soon!

This sounds like a really difficult situation, you're very brave. I hope things get better for you soon.

Lily

Still in hospital, should get answers tomorrow,
Dorothea

It's been a long year.

Basically, we got our gall bladder out in march, and we've been in and out of hospital since. Spent 6 months from May until the beginning of november in hospital and now we have chronic pain issues, potentially resultant of covid or potentially from an enlarged colon and a narrowing in a different part of the colon. Since the doctors do not know what's going on, they are unwilling to do anything to assist. As such, life is kind of hell.
Bridie is still around a ###$ ton. They are doing their best. They are really lonely though and I'm struggling to find internet places that would be accepting of them. There has already been conflicts with trans groups we are in, and if we get kicked from those both big us and small us don't have a lot of lifelines.

Hope everyone is doing well, or at least has had a better year than us.

We also haven't really been playing any video games except Paper Mario and Emio the Smiling Man: Famicom Detective Club and picross to keep our hands busy sometimes though we've gotten kind of bored of that. Bridie's also been reading kids' books which has been good for them

Yours,
Dorothea