AW10 wrote:I do not know your story, so apologies if received badly, yet reading this made me think that Marcus was meant to prevent you from trusting men and now is gone as you are open to trust men.
Marcus was our long time maladaptive protector. He did a lot to hurt us in the name of protecting us. About a decade ago (during one of the times we were edging close to realizing we had DID) we ended up writing stories about the 'man in our nightmares' and how we defied him and locked him up.
From what we've been able to piece together, he was an amalgam of all the different people who did Bad Things over the years.
I (Violette) tried to get him to accept change and that we could help him heal, but he refused. A few months ago, he 'glitched out' and we had a group of new alters who have shown up. Some aren't the safest of protectors, but none of them are actively harming anyone in the system.
I'm not sure he was meant to make us distrust men, but he had that effect.
Thank you,
Violette