New and figuring my way around.

Hi, I'm recently diagnosed about a couple months ago with DID. Never knew what it was before all of this started and some of us kinda already knew what was going on, others were completely in the dark and some of us are still really in denial about all of it. It is strange, finding things that finally explain what I've experienced all my life and never quite found a way to put into words.

Like things I'd say or do, and then when asked about it later I'd pull some half-baked cover out my ass to save face to be normal lol. I never knew why I did them or where they come from it just happened and I couldn't stop it. Never noticed the amnesia till I looked more into did after my psychiatrist recommended it. And I started to try to think back and I honestly have almost no recollection of my childhood. I was absolutely floored. How in all my life could I not have realized how much I was missing.

Apparently time lapses are a thing too and I just thought that was a normal thing for people to skip time. I didn't realize how often my mom kept reminding me something I was about to go out to do was actually days or weeks prior and I had no recollection of the time between them in that moment. To me it was just that day a few days or weeks prior. It's very confusing to navigate especially when you find out you're missing not just pieces of yourself from splits but also time and your life from memory. So I guess I came to this forum to find others that deal with the same things.

One of us is really analytical and she cant find many people to talk to cause people never really grasp or understand what she's talking about when it comes to deep philosophical convos or scientific topics. She just sees the world in a more analytical way so she will say the wrong things and be off-putting without meaning to be because she cant understand the emotion behind them. She's the one who's supposed to be the og and she's the one that's most displaced from the rest and we don't quite know how to help her. It's like we've all been living our lives while she's been trying to hide from the world, so we're trying to find a way to maybe find her similar people to talk to with similar experiences. She's barely ever out and when she is it's usually a bad experience because she doesnt think like other people do.

Conversations usually end up not in depth enough or we switch for some reason sometimes mid convo if we're on an scientific topic and the rest of us have no idea what she was talking about or quite what she means cause the rest of us arent into scientific things. There are 8 of us that we know of so a small system but we are like family good and bad lol. If anyone else goes through anything similar please share. It would be nice to not feel so alone through all of this. I've never met anyone with this disorder either so this is all new.

Hello and welcome to the forum! You will find a link to the ressources thread in my signature. Hope you will find some useful things in it!

Thank you, ArbreMonde. I'll definitely take a look into the resources thread.