Way to induce more Possesive Switches?

I(Oli) wanted to know if there was something I could do to increase the possesiveness of our switches, as Non-Possesive switches are much more confusing, and it makes me feel like I'm faking. I want to suddenly blackout for some time and then come back out of nowhere, I want this bc it will help me accept, and it will also help me understand things more.

On a seperate note, recently three introjects from the DDLC franchise have returned from dormancy for no particular reason, and it came with a flood of memories from a part of my life that I am ashamed of. The worst part is that I am dating one of these introjects, and I don't want our relationship to be affected due to me being ashamed. I want to fully accept my(natsuki) existence so Oli can accept my existence too. I'm sorry for the mid topic switch.

Pentacle System(Oli: They/She + Natsuki: She/Xem)

It doesn't seem like a good or healthy idea to try to have more amnesia. The direction of healing is to have more and more co-consciousness so there's more awareness of everyone's feelings and needs. People who have more amnesia aren't necessarily more accepting of their systems, and don't necessarily understand anything better. Also, blackouts make it much harder to function in daily life.

But I do hope you find a way to feel less confused and to be able to accept how things are.

In order to reduce confusion and to reduce the "I am faking it" feelings, I advice to rather go for books like "Coping with trauma related dissociation" and "Healing the fragmented selves of trauma survivors". They include tips and exercises to reduce confusion without causing more amnesia / blackouts.

Also, "possessive switch" means "feeling like somebody else is piloting the body while observing everything happening" if I'm not mistaken. It does not refer to blackouts.

Blackouts are awful and chances are, if they are stressful enough, you will forget you blacked out right away which causes even more confusion.

We don't have blackout type switches often unless we are under extreme stress. We figure that there's a reason for that. We still have occasions when we feel as if we're faking having DID, but that's stopped being a more constant thing. When our system blacks out, it usually means that Beth or Queen have had to assume full control because more than one of us has panicked. Most of the time, the others tell the panicked alter or part that things are ok and we are safe.

As for feeling ashamed...we feel ashamed a lot, and we know that it isn't possible to get rid of that shame without accepting that things happened that were either out of our control or we were doing horrible things or feeling horrible things because of the trauma done to us by others.

Reading up on trauma should help give you tools to make things better.

Please be well,
Lilith

More possessive switches means higher levels of dissociation. You can't have that unless going through more trauma, pain and stress. That's not the healthy way to learn how to accept you have DID.

And honestly, as someone who had possessive switches with and without memory losses, it doesn't help. If you have trouble accepting you have DID, it just makes the whole thing even scarier and more confusing. Also, from what I've seen, when you have tendencies to denial and you struggle with acceptance, the higher the dissociation, the higher the denial and struggle.

It might look counter-intuitive, but reducing even more the dissociative barriers between you and the rest of your system will help a lot. It will allow you to trust more your perceptions, to communicate better with everyone, to be more aware of what's going on.

ArbreMonde gave you great resources to look at for all that!