Hi, an introduction to me and my alters

I feel like I dissociate all the time, and when I get put on medications I feel like my whole body shuts down and I just switch to an alter until I can get out of it. So, that may be me speaking right now, because I got forced back on medications last June and am trying to desperately get off them because they make me feel super alien, and in pain, and just whacked out. I constantly pace almost 24/7, and am in bad pain and I have this issue where I feel like my body has been invaded by other people I know and I feel like I am only seeing out of their eyes and when look away from the mirror my face + body are being replaced by them.

Anyway, this alter name is Artois. Hello.

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host; Artois (young adult, severely autistic, suffers from severe brain damage and takes over when on medication); Felix (perpetually young-looking since college age, goes to college gets straight a's has lots of parties and lots of friends. Sort of who I wish I was)

Welcome to the forum. Have you told the doctor who prescribed the medication how it makes you feel? It sounds like a really strong side effect to have ..what kind of medication is it?

Welcome to the forum. I do hope you can get the situation with the medication sorted out. We are here to try and help out as much as we can.

Vi

I have talked to many a prescribers about my symptoms, they all down play it to some degree but my current one is maybe willing to get me off of the injection eventually and onto pill, which I won't have to take. It's Haldol, an antipsychotic. I got put on it for getting in a mild fight with my mom, and the police said I was acting psychotic somehow. So, off to the mental hospital I went. 9 months later, I'm barely getting by due to the effects of the drug which I feel like make me really incapable. It's so so hard for me to sit still for anything, so I'm hoping I get to go off meds before I attend college in the fall so it won't be a struggle just to pay attention outside of the screwy pain that makes me want to look away from people talking and not pay attention and wish I could be pacing.

I had the same issue with an antipsychotic I was prescribed at some point. It stuck one alter to the front and it was a huge mess. Did not help for the dissociation, quite the opposite, it made things worse for me by cutting all communication.

Usually the meds advised for dissociation are more on the antidepressant/antianxiety side, with cognitive behavioral therapy and grounding techniques. Of course, if the doctors do a proper differential diagnosis and discover you have other comorbidities, it will change the treatment plan a bit.

I think it might be a good idea to request a differential diagnosis (dunno how it is done this one, sorry) as well as a proper dissociation (DES scale for example) and DID screening (cant remember the name of the tool though). It will give a better idea of the issues you have so the treatment can be better adapted to your needs.

Good luck!

Thank you for the replies. Artois was who dreamt out of me last night, and he dreamt he was having a summer on medication (which is going to be at least partially true this year) and he could not help but experience inner terror and akathisia which led to him having bad akathisia later in the dream and complete and utter fear. He is immature and really wants the season of summer back. A completely normal yet odd dream became a total nightmare because of the medication side effects. I think I have to start forcing the idea of liking summer anyway to him, and if I indulge more in summer sounding music he'll settle down and just learn more on how to develop himself before he eventually merges with me.