memory and confusion...

I had a memory tongiht.
Still nto sure what triggered it.
When I came backt hough I didn ot know who I was.
Whether I was big amber.
or beth, bonnie, blythe, ben, bannie, baby, bailey, barley, or bally.
I am still sort of confused.
And really out of it.
One of the alters is in self destruct mode, adn its really messing with me right now.
maybe if i jusdt go to bed I will feel less foggy.

Yes, go to bed, or eat something if you're hungry.

Hope your head clears and things stop being a total suckfest for you

ya, that does suck! if sleep doesn't work, sometimes listening to a possitive alters favorite music helps. or taking the kids to the toy store, or thrift store. or some soul food.(preparing food like my grandma did helps me find my identity, or at least part of it) anyway i hope you feel better soon!

sending you (((((hugs)))))
benny

so NOT knowing who you are is typical of this genra of disorder?

36 years of trying to decide who i am or to be.........

and not knowing.

how many variations are there to this......and what are the dx criteria?

I think that sometimes you get confused because there are so many different versions of you and so many people that are not you but are part of you. It gets really confusing. and sometimes alters "share" where it feels like more than one person is in control of the body at the same time... that is when I am most confused.
The criteria for DX DID is in the DSM IV but I do not think not knowing who you are is part of that criteria. It would probably just be a symptom of confusion associated with dissociation derealization and depersonalization.
Hope this helps.
Amber

well put amber. i think one of the reasons it took so long to dx. is the enability to explain in words, what is happening to you.

today, one of my "kids" wants to isolate and dissociate. something happened yesterday scared her. me, i'm bored and wish she'd get over it! i'm having trouble taking control, if you know what i mean. my brain feels numb. oh well, it will pass. i just wish it wasn't such a struggle to function. got any tips?

benny

Recognisable.. how are things now, Amber?

We're thinking of you..!!!

Today... okay, yesterday not so okay... its a day by day and hour by hour way of life right now.
Kind of frustrating...
but at least I am alive.