Some inner self talks

the thing I am writing now is that I had somehow drastically reduced my communication that sometimes I experience surprise by getting surprised by something.like i am feeling distant to certain parts that kept me going all through the hard times.in essence the 'vyakulan' is more dominant nowadays and 'nirali' too is present as welll ..the 'player' that liked the play , is missing and because of that lot of boredom in the syst.nothing can be heard out.not even a single word.the 'smoker' sometimes try to sabotage the system with little success .'vyakulan' is worried about financial assets ot doesnt have to survive in this world.'vyakulan' is totally confused about what to do to follow up sessions.the lose of job kept vyakulam out of proportion as well as some call from previous byussiness partners left vyakulan thinking so much.
'niraIi' likes to look at itself in the mirror and justify every way to not appear ugly..like nirali is happy about some constancy or progress of bdd symptoms.nirali was diagnosed with bdd and kept silent during therapy sessions as nirali thinks it's history is so boring and unhelpfull for the system.