KitMcDaydream wrote:We first found out about one of our alters from a child alter playing animal crossing, she named her character after the alter we hadn't realised was there. This helped her to come forwards. She then did her own island and named her character after her mother (who died many years ago) It turned out the alter was the one who had been up front at the time of the mother's terminal illness and death but had never been able to process it properly.
The child alter also revealed that the name Kit had given her on here (just to explain things to others) was not her real name and she wanted to be known by her real name.
Our non verbal alter had not come out into the body since early childhood. But started re-surfacing when we got breath of the wild on switch. They never come out fully but play the game co-consciously with Kit (our most autistic adult). After the first time they wanted to play again and started sending images to whoever was out hosting 'eg link on horse', so they'd put the game on.
When another child alter started enjoying colouring books too, 'Bobby' (the more autistic non verbal child) started sending us black and white images of animals and Kit remembered that when they were in the unit they had a compulsion to sketch dolphins almost constantly. We gave Bobby a sketch book and pencil and they sketched the identical pictures all over again. including scenic ones from when Kit was taken dolphin-watching, (position of the cliffs with birds on, the boat Kit was on, the big bridge that spanned over the water with the dolphins swimming underneath, indicating Bobby was also present at the time!
I've noticed someone has started a blog (on here) in our name too! ..Phoenix owned up the first post but she didn't write the last two.. They are written from 'Bobby's perspective', we had absolutely no idea they could read or write poems!
I guess my point is some of the alters living really deep within the system may take many years yet before they feel they can or want to communicate.
Jody
a lot of this is actually really fascinating. i really like thinking about how DID works subconsciously and how alters function together, so i'm always interested in hearing other people's stories and thinking about what things mean for them subconsciously and how each alter communicates and their individual memory banks and such. it's really fascinating to discover parts of your childhood were shared with other alters, or to discover entire parts of your childhood you didn't know about because someone else had experienced them. sometimes it's a really beautiful experience to connect with those alters and learn about things you didn't know previously, and to get a more complete picture of your life and your childhood while you're at it.
one of our alters, ben, is a bit more affected by our autism in our system, and has a special interest in the game minecraft, i might have mentioned that before. when he was more active, he'd send us images of playing minecraft, building his house and killing the monsters and such in the game, or he'd "ask" us to watch videos of people playing the game, (i say "ask", but it was more like a strong passive influence urge to start watching them). like i said before, we're using that game to build what our headspace looks like and it's really fun and a great way to connect with each other if you have the patience.
video games are a really interesting and special kind of media to connect to your alters with considering how immersive they can be, and how they can sometimes require a lot of different skillsets to complete properly. if i only i had the money to buy more of the video games i wanted :/
grem (host)
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