by Menagerie » Thu May 20, 2021 12:13 am
Wow, this is SO horrible. And scary, and yes....can imagine you'd feel so exposed. I'm sorry. And you're aware of everyone in your system?
I only ask this because we have someone inside who thinks if she can figure out "why we're doing this" then we can "stop pretending to have DID" and get back to our normal life. She also likes to tell some of us that we're borderline, which we're not...and that we are trying to get attention, which is not our usual thing at all. I believe she has only ever told this to the therapists, or written it in the journal, but I sort of have this real low-level fear that one day she's going to say it to the wrong person. She does, however, seem to have a good understanding of DID and likes to read papers, and birdsong's site and stuff. Not sure how much of it is just denial. She finds articles about somatic disorders and uses things like the psychogenic seizure disorder to prove her point. So that's why I'm just wondering if you've ruled out someone in your own system - but please, if this isn't helpful, just scroll past. And I'm so sorry this is happening to you.
Michelle
A menagerie of one. Some of us are Michelle, Chris, Kathryn, Sarah, Bobby, Lisa, Christie, Krystal, D.