I seem to be growing up

As I have said before, things within my system move very quickly, and today is no exception. I seem to be processing large chunks of my life experience in days or sometimes hours flat. I presume this is occurring because we have stopped resisting the process as much as we had to before. But that is neither here nor there, because whatever the reason, I have started to see some rapid changes occurring within myself, and I think that maybe it's okay. Maybe even more than okay.

This is Daisy talking, by the way, and I started off as nonverbal, not being able to speak and only communicating through tantrums on the inside. That lasted for a lot of years, but as the others started working with me, I began to start talking and communicating better. I don't know what age I began at, but I have been noticing myself start to grow in age at a very quick rate. The first age I felt I was at was about three, but then it steadily increased to seven, then possibly eleven. At this time, I don't have an actual number, but honestly, I'm starting to feel like a teenager. It's kind of startling because of how quickly all of this is happening, but I'm kinda just trying to enjoy the ride at the same time.

If it makes any sense, it feels like I'm processing my way through the ages, running through all of my old phases and stuff, but this time properly processing and reflecting on them. I'm learning so much and I'm remembering so much that I used to love and still have a soft spot for in my heart. It's like digging up multiple time capsules. I love it! I do feel bad for my system, though, since I'm starting to revisit stuff from when it was 2005 or 2006, and our dad had introduced us to YouTube for the first time. So many pop-punk songs, AMVs, and more for as far as the eye could see!

And as I continue along this path, I'm starting to wonder if I'll run into one of our other parts (Alice) who started to develop when we were 12. She's the embodiment of clinical depression and self-harm things. But she also came from a time when we found some friends online through roleplaying in different fandoms, so maybe it won't be all that bad. But I won't worry about that right at this moment. I'll have plenty of time to find that out later. For now I'm just going to continue delving deeper into the anime culture of our youth. I'm also re-discovering my favorite Radio Disney songs, really old shows, and stuff like that, so that's pretty fun.

Thank you to everyone who's putting up with my shenanigans. This entire experience is such an adventure.

Sincerely,
Daisy

Glad you're enjoying the ride!

Do not worry about meeting Alice. I'm sure that if you do, she'll enjoy being dragged along through the recovery process! Being able to let go of the pain and jump forwards into the happy is such an amazing feeling!

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Urielle (as Uriel+Theia partly unfused)