birdsong87 wrote:we already know the answer, and guessed it beforehand too.
Stuff like that is the reason why nobody wants to respond to this post. This is manipulation, it makes us angry and it snuffs any interest we might have had.
We know that we have some issues on our side, otherwise it would be easier and we will work on that.
I don't fully understand what are you saying. To what post people don't wanna answer? To your thread? Or what? Your system doesn't wanna talk to me?
I didn't see this coming. Don't really know what to say. I don't understand where the anger came from and why, and I don't understand the manipulation accuses. I rather thought you'd be angry because I'm still talking about him.
What you found manipulative, was meant to rather be soothing, and I just don't believe in friends appearing from somewhere like that, to any of us, in general. I believe in people getting angry for us when I've no clue why a lot more. It just meant what was said, that we don't expect anything from you and didn't, and I wanted you to know it, so you don't feel pushed. Because how we understood it, you did make it clear you don't wanna know him.
By "you" I mean you as a system in here, because there's been many of you being part of the conversation. It didn't even cross my mind you (she) could actually think you DO think about doing things differently by giving him a chance. It just didn't.
I hope you understand I'm talking about Lucas behind his back in here. He is away all the winters, and he hasn't yet come out this spring. Otherwise he would have come in here and said Hi himself after what we read is your problem. But your system members told they don't like him to be talked about (or anyone they don't know, because they find it confusing). But I still talked about him, to someone who doesn't like that. I just did it in different way from there, I didn't write an advertisement about how he wants to talk to people, I talked about him as an example in other things I had to say, that I said in order to help you some way, find the problem that prevents you from doing things or maybe find out what you (your teens) really want, if it's unclear. Maybe it wasn't, maybe I just didn't get it. I wanted you to know I'm not forcing him to you, just because I still talked about him, and I wasn't originally either.
Not that his willingness to connect would've changed, I don't wanna push you, and I didn't want to humiliate him in front of someone who doesn't wanna know him, and advertise him to someone who has no interest what so ever. He is social, but not desperate, he just loves people. I'm the one who's desperate, me and Fourteen kind of, about being so lonely, but in real world, not because of not fitting among DID teens. But the thread was about loneliness, that's why it felt close to us.
But what ever, I wrote my first response to your system. You didn't answer to it at all, but told to someone else that you don't like the kind of messages I wrote, the kind that have info about systems you don't know. I cried after finding out how something I meant well was looked down. That was pretty clear and loud No to me.
We don't take No as a maybe, we take it as a No. And I didn't see anything that would've changed my understanding about how you felt about it.
We don't approach people easily when it's unclear do they accept us, and if there's a sign they don't, we usually go away and stay away. I don't know why this time I didn't. Usually I would've wrote just the first message and when it wasn't taken well, I'd gone away and remembered not to do the same mistake again. Maybe I did things differently because it hit that much I cried, and I'm not usually emotional, I just avoid, I don't feel. Maybe I was hiding I felt something and tried to act like nothing happened. I don't know. But I did differently than usually and continued anyway. It's done now, so it doesn't matter why I stayed.
I hope you don't hold what I did and how I am like against him, or other system members that were talked about. I didn't try to violate any of you. I tried very hard not to. I only know what would feel wrong to me and then avoid doing it. I don't read minds and don't know what annoys you, I didn't when I came in with wrong kind of message, and I still don't. I still write too long, but you're free to not read any of it.
We knew we were different kind of system from you and you knew it too. But we don't learn to understand anything if people get angry when the differences show, other than to stay away, or fight if needed. We don't deal well with people aiming their anger to us.
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Jessica6, Lucas will PM you, when he finds his way out to this world again. Can't say when it'll be, I've no way to control it. I don't even know why he stays in at winter times, he doesn't really know it himself either. It's just the way things are.