Sappy small update

I just wanted to pop in and say how we’re doing and give some positivity to everyone here. I know I don’t post much these days but that’s because I am in school/work! (I got a job! It’s been difficult starting out but now it’s getting better) I posted this on another support area as well but felt like I should post it here too; I miss this forum a lot and will try to lurk more at minimum <3

As time has passed, I’ve slowly become more able to say ‘maybe the really scary things happened to us.’ Sometimes I can even say it without the maybe. Not all the time but. Progress.

Something happened Monday that 6 months ago would have caused a panic attack, because it was very very triggering, but that this time only made me angry. And that is a big thing. It shows I really am beginning to accept the bad $#%^ on some level. Enough to be angry anyway.

Other parts are still not able to accept it, and that’s ok - as is due to the nature of this disorder as I understand it we’ll all be at different points in accepting and processing. But I think more of us are moving into ‘it did happen, it cannot be undone, but we survived, and we did not deserve it, and what we do deserve is to recover’ mindsets.

And that feels incredible.

(Also we found out we have enough money already to finally escape our abusive household and by the time we can actually leave we will have 10x the amount we need and basically all that we need to do is finish school and get the degree. So that is. I spent last night sobbing.)

So. This is just a sappy post. And a ‘it does get easier. You can recover. You can do it. It’s hard but you can and you must and it will be scary but it will also set you free’ post. I hope everyone who is doing well continues to do well, and those who aren’t - I hope things get better sooner then later. We are all so strong, and we have had to deal with so much... even if you are just existing you are winning. Keep winning. It will pay off. One day, it will.

— Wolf

If this post is sappy, More Please!

Everything sounds very good for you right now! So glad to get good reports from folks!

That's great to hear, Wolf! And thank you for the encouragement. Things have been hard for us lately, so it's nice to see positive things happening eventually for others.

Congrats to you, Wolf and all!

MDs

Glad to hear it!

It feels so good to hear some positive stuff! Let's celebrate! WHOOOT!!! Congrats!

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Zami