Apparently she had read about someone who had an alt who hated their partner/so whatever. This probably had her worried.
Yeah, I understand how it can be a bit scary for an outside person to learn about that.
I do know they tend to be very shy when switching but tha5 may be my insecurity bleeding through to them? I don't know.
It's a possibility. There's so many things playing into DID, switching and dynamics between alters...
At first with my ex, Daem pretended to be me because *I* was to one too uncomfortable with the idea. Daem wasn't the kind who put a lot of efforts into pretending to be me with people we feel safe with + my ex was there when I discovered about my DID and system, and she seemed to be extra-supportive and okay with it at the beginning ; but I wasn't ready for this at all. It was already weird enough to notice him acting through me and
to remember about it.
The minute I think I have an answer, more pop up. Not to mention the emotional rollercoaster of passive influence, strange sleep, denial
Luckily, it calms down after a while. Or maybe we get used to dealing with it... anyway, I think it becomes a bit easier.
I think it is easier to journal if it feels more like someone other than me were reading it. Maybe I am weird, I dont know.
I totally get that ! We write in our journal kind of the same way we would write a story, as if someone would read it one day. It helps a lot.
Keeping a distance until a relationship is established sounds like a really good idea. And congrats on your "newish" relationship, we wish you all the best. I am curious how they reacted to being told of your system.
Thank you =)
He kind of always knew, for two reasons : first, we had few websites in common, and he saw us sharing our French forum about DID before we became friends. Second, and that the "fun" part of our story : he was a friend of my ex first, and even if he became us too after a short while, she reached for him more than once to complain about me and Daem. So yeah, he already knew about a lot

I feel similarly about working with my T. Just the thought of switching in front of the T makes me hyperventilate. Between the attachment potential, denial, and the anxiety it may be a long time before she knows them unless the T starts noticing spontaneous switches. I really need to feel safe around her and it will take time.
Yep, relationship with T is a big thing. It's totally okay to take your time !
Hope it will calm down for you soon !
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French person with ADHD
Functional multiplicity, former partial DID