by Sarandipity » Mon May 25, 2020 1:04 pm
Thanks guys. I do have psychotic alters. Trouble and Fortune. They are psychotic and delusional.
It doesn't seem to be doing "anything" to me. I feel ok, stuck with Trouble, but not really stuck and I haven't got to know him on any kind of deep level before so it's ok.
Definitely can't dissociate at the moment but that's kinda ok. The others were aiming at that because I'd been absent for so long. I wasn't really in agreement but when things go this far - psychosis and I walked for miles, was awake for 3 days - that tends to mean a vote of everyone has outweighed a few people who object.
I will take this for a while but knowing what you guys have now said once I'm back in the community I will speak to my outside psychiatrist and try weaning off of this and onto a different drug he previously recommended.
Thanks, because it didn't feel like it was effecting me I didn't know..
Last night though I kept waking up with a head jolt. Like someone was trying to come through, couldn't and I jolted awake. So what you're saying explains that, obviously Trouble had other theories of what it was but i know now that it's is the dissociative sleep being stopped. Sometimes I would have 3 dreams at once and be partially awake.
I think even though it's strong, which I hadn't noticed probably because I'm upfront with a psychotic alter who usually stays in the subconscious, it will give a mental rest we all probably need. If the others were against it they wouldn't have took the drugs so readily, refused etc. I'm a voluntary patient which hasn't happened since my first ever hospital admission 20 years ago. So even that tells me everyone was willing.
Thanks again, Sarah.
Monte Carlo or Bust
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No-one and Peter, Beth and Karen, Mandy and Mouse plus a seperate system of fragments including: rabit and others.